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Today passed in a blink of an eye. achievemment? nothing. I'm so f-ed up these days. I need to start mugging. Been having this weird restless feeling... i wonder why. I need my dear~!! haha... can't wait for friday. when i can finally settle down to study with my darl~ yay~! (OMG did i just make studying sound fun?)
Anyway.. i think i need a sealer, a sealer to seal my mouth, my emotions, my laptop and my-self. rawr...
No. i shan't emo. i shan't rant. I'm sick of seeing my own numerous ranting posts and knowing that i've seriously achieved nothing. posts shall all be positive from now on. (at least for now, unless something manage to break through the barrriers and affect me negatively. jealousy, restrictions and what not.)
~MeHhz~

Yikes!!!

Back in hall on a sunday night, wanting to watch the 7.30 show on channel U while eating hall dinner. After packeting it, i happily started eating and watching, thinking, hmm... today's food wasn't so bad.. TILL....BLEARGH!!!! can u spot the stupid disgusting worm/maggot right in the middle of the pic?!?! Yucks. i totally threw the whole packet of dinner away and ended up with cupnoodles... =.=''
i tot it was normal, but some things can really be freaky when excessive.... *shudders*
~MeHhz~

pics pics pics...

Just realised a few things. Firstly, i haven't been posting pics cos all my pics are on facebook. Lazy to post here again. But i'll do that just for livening my boring blog. Secondly, FINALS ARE A MONTH AWAY!!!!! Thirdly, I'm seriously glad i've spent so much time with indy, granted that i probably have to leave RH. If a 53 pointer can't get in, can i? dun think so. Fourth, after meeting sunny, and chatting for quite a bit, i realised I actually miss jrock forum pple. Though they dont know the existence of this blog, i shall still say I MISS U PPLE! and the many bands we talk about. SO NOW... PICS!

FIRST UP, Raffles Hall Dinner and Dance. (thx eveline for the tie!)

OG guys~...............

OG Girls~........................

extreme left - john, beside john - yeow kheng, tallest guy - Jia yong

No solo shots with john and jy, and i dun have the pic for yk.

Hwee Shan and I~...........

Yi Shiean and I~...............

Crystal and I~.....................

Anna and I~.............

Azi and I~..............

Kevin and I~.............

Chee Chung and I~...........

Lastly, wei liang kor and I~.........

THEN it's SYNERGY~

The whole grp of us~ <33

While waiting for the stars to come out~......

My dearest Ah bu~!!!

Hong Yi and I~!!!! *pinches hoi's cheeks*

LASTLY, just cos i suddenly miss them..... My Jrock-circle of friends....
Kai wen and I.... Argh, just realised i dun have a pic with jie hui. :X

The ORIGINAL club @ SOY. (can spot me? haha.)

With some newcomers....

The close few... from right, Meki, Shiro, SUNNY!!!, ruka, me:P, nekoning!

Realised i have no pics with facevoid and ika-chan. Hope to meet up soon, though i've MIA-ed quite awhile from the forum. Wonder how are things there.

Anyway..... just a thought.... I'm seriously thankful that i enjoyed myself to the fullest when i'm with indy this whole 2 semesters. I don't know how it'll be like next sem, but i'll nvr forget the fun we had. Though things became kinda complicated after sem2, i'm still really glad i found such great people to be with, those who believed in me, trusted their thoughts and troubles to me. Hopefully this friendship bond i have with all of them will not fade....

It's dance unsensored later today, then its time for me to start mugging seriously. wish me luck, haha.

-the resemblance can be so uncanny, i'm amused. haha.-

~MeHhz~

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OMG... talk about being ridiculous. YOU gave the green light, i was ALLOWED to go for DU. Now? Yep. i still can go... But u're thinking of asking me to GO BACK TO TAMPINES on saturday morning just because i have nothing on during the afternoon, and GO BACK TO CLEMENTI on sat night for DU, then BACK TO TAMPINES after DU? just trying to make me feel guilty for not going back or what? yes, u succeeded. maybe i should just give up my DU ticket and go back right? I'm beyond words for this. Maybe i'm just oversensitive or wad. I dunno. U win.
~MeHhz~
SO much for 'no more rantings'. :X

EDIIT: HA! Just checked the hostel applications. No raffles hall for me. i've got kuok foundation instead. Is this what the lord has decided for me? to stay in kuok so i can really study and also join outside CCAs? Should i go ask around and pull strings? I really REALLY want raffles hall. But. Maybe, just maybe, reducing hall activities can help me concentrate. Should i go source for pple to help pull strings? :X Maybe i should just try and see how it goes. I dunno.

Z.Z

blah.... just realised it's nothing but rants the last few posts. Guess it's time i acutally uploaded some pics and update about some parts of my life. But i'm lazy..... Haha.. Kk.. shall posts pics of aquos @ synergy and indy @ DnD after these events.
Mugging is..... argh. k. no more ranting bout mugging. sick of these posts.
YW i miss u!!! haha...
~MeHhz~

涙を流す

I thought i was immune already. I tot i accepted the fact. But i guess today was the last blow. Maybe i'm just not suited to uni life. One last try, no excuses to myself, then i'll give up and truly accept it. I'm at a loss.
~MeHhz~

umm.... just some reminders to myself...

Shyte.
Is sleeping late gonna be my habit? sleeping late cos of studies is okay. But to waste my night away doing nothing? Like totally nothing? not watching anime, reading manga, or whatsoever? Sheesh. Something's seriously wrong with my body clock. That aside... It's time to remind myself once again.
STOP UR FKING SLACKING. Looks around u. everyone's busy mugging. Those not mugging, LOOK at their cap. urs? only a tiny fraction of theirs. what were ur hopes for uni? all daydreams aye? what happened to learning jap lang? what happened to SEP in japan? what happened to joning certain ccas? Have u even acheived what u DAYDREAMED of b4 u started uni? NO. Nothing a single thing. Worse thing, ur cap is way way way below average. AND? u're letting history repeat?
Whatcha gonna do after typing this? slack again. Sheesh. When have u become such a uselss git passing day after day with no aims? ur goals are far beyond ur reach now.
Time was when u can 'flunk' ur exams and still pass it while others failed. Now, in uni. you truly flunk all ur exams while others scored. pple reading this would think, sheri's being hard on herself, sheri jia you, etc.... But in actual fact, you know it. Sheri can check herself a million times and still end up not studying.
I dont see how typing this will help you to study. But face the fact, the old u and the you now are miles apart. What happened to all the aims, dreams, and hopes? They're all daydreams now. Wants, not backed by 'purchasing power', hence, not a demand. Forever a dream. Daydream. Dream on sheri. and wake up years later regretting everything.
~MeHhz~

This is just great.

great.... i'm finally understanding half of what archi pple feel when they have sleepless nights chionging for assingments. Unfortunately, my sleepless nights are due to non-academic reasons and will cause my already super low CAP to be even lower. Just great.
Thurs night.
Went home to pack stuff, cos of HDB upgrading thing, my family gotta shift out. Packed till 3am++, then did CTW project till 8.30am. Slept 2 hrs, then its back to school for lecture. slept another 1 hr that day, then chionged for EG1108 midterms.
Friday night.
studied till 3am++ (thanks to brandy, yk and hs for accompanying me and helping me), then 5hrs of sleep, its THE TEST. flunked it as expected. what else can i actually expect? Ha. after that, project meetingg, and its back home to pack stuff again.
Sat night.
Was there even a saturday night??!?!? Totally no sleep, helping my family to pack stuff. thank god i completed packing my stuff ages ago. Movers came at 10am sunday morn, left at 2pm++ no sleep throughout the whole day. all the way till 5pm, slept for an hour, then its cleaning up the area and project again.
God.... i really need sleep. and i'm finally back in hall, and i'm bloggin. it's been a hectic day, with the super frequent volcano eruptions. It can really be taxing when u nvr know when the volcano will erupt, the careful treading around, making sure u dun step on his tail or he'll explode, etc... i think i'm really going bonkers. 8-6 lessons tmr. Tutorials not done, project work dangling, lecture notes not printed. I can't take it anymore.. i need sleep. guess i just have to wake up at 6 to do all that.
It once again occured to me the expectations they have of me. i dont wanna care anymore. But still... @.@
Sheri shall learn to phantom. Sheri shall phantom. Sheri shall just leave everything in god's hands and let him guide me through.
~MeHhz~

Addiction....

Addiction can really be fatal. Anymore, i'm gonna make history repeat itself. Shiat~!
~MeHhz~

uhoh...

Oh no.... maths is in 12+ hours time... 8.30pm. And i've not studied finish. It's 6.24am, and i'm not asleep yet... I'm tired. but i daren't sleep. It's like, once i sleep and wake up, it'll officially be thursday. MATHS MIDTERMS DAY. I think i'll screw up once again. I'm still only 65% done with studying. and that 65% is not a very sure 65%, if u get what i mean. Maths is no longer going into my head now. But i dare not sleep... I've gotta cover the most impt 35% more... argh... i'd vowed to do better this semester, but i dont think i can, esp for maths... second order differentiation... homogeneous equations are still okay... My non-homogeneous equations are gonna die... I guess, it back to 'servemerightfornotstudyingconstantly', and it's time to face the music once again.... With much more severe consequences. No excuses this time.
~MeHhz~

Sometimes.....

Sometimes i just hate growing up.. Or fear the volcano eruptions at home, where the tiger goes berserk... Or just dread mirrors.... Or..... Whatever....
~randomMeHhz~

*o*

Ahh.... what am i doing? Watching more detective-based jap drama. At this time i'm supposed to be mugging/sleeping... =.= Yw~ i need ta study with you.. Those 2 days were my most productive days...
MLE over, next up, maths. I LURVE MATHS. yes, i know i do... i truly love maths. Maths is my everything in life... (somehow self-psycho doesn't work).
Anyway, i should be sleeping, not bloggin. Got lotsa stuff to update, but i'll do that another day. Study with yw @macs, shifting house cos of HDB upgrade, indy supper, tmr's ding tai feng treat, etc.... but now sleep.
~MeHhz~