back from aussie....
But feeling rather not myself.
I dunno... i just feel so weak and uncomfortable, dizzy at times.
Puked my guts out on the last day cos of food poisoning, till my vomit was all green liquid.
Ate stuff and felt rather normal after that, but still queasy in the stomach at times.
Body ached all over the next day, but it's probably due to period. =X
and the most surprising thing is, i actually have no appetite for chocolates or timtams.
I mean like WTH? that's not me... in my mind i'm dreaming of them, oreocheese cake, chocs etc.. but faced with chocs, i don't feel like eating anymore. It's so weird. argh... i hope my stomach settles soon and i regain energy to go jogging. I even feel slightly dizzy when i stand up now... ZZzzzz....
So lethargic.
~MeHhz~
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
dunno.
It's kinda bad for my self-esteem to find out that i didn't even pass the airforce engineer interview.
They offered the air operations vocation to me though, but cos my dad was so against me signing on, i declined the chance.
I dunno what to think now, with my sucky results, even the airforce doesn't want me. Kinda crushing.
Oh well, i can only go on a job hunt when i'm back from aussie. Get a normal engineering job, work as a lousy engineer, hope i can learn more and slowly find my direction. i wanna say "i don't wanna think about it anymore, just enjoy my trip" but i'm still dwelling on it. SIGH.
come on sheri. you're flying off to aussie for grad trip, for once just shut down ur worrisome brain and enjoy life. job hunt after ur trip.
anyway, cya'll when i'm back!
They offered the air operations vocation to me though, but cos my dad was so against me signing on, i declined the chance.
I dunno what to think now, with my sucky results, even the airforce doesn't want me. Kinda crushing.
Oh well, i can only go on a job hunt when i'm back from aussie. Get a normal engineering job, work as a lousy engineer, hope i can learn more and slowly find my direction. i wanna say "i don't wanna think about it anymore, just enjoy my trip" but i'm still dwelling on it. SIGH.
come on sheri. you're flying off to aussie for grad trip, for once just shut down ur worrisome brain and enjoy life. job hunt after ur trip.
anyway, cya'll when i'm back!
Monday, June 04, 2012
FML.
Even now, i feel as if i'm not leading the life i want to.
EVERYTHING is dictated.
The pressure is seriously suffocating.
WHY are expectations always so high?
Why can't we humans lead simple lives?
Sometimes i dunno who i hate more.
Myself for being such a loser, my dad for being such a dictator, or society for all the expectations they have on my generation.
Went for the NAC2012 talk cos 4th uncle was strongly recommending it.
On one hand, i gained general knowledge. On the other hand, i look around me and see all the money hungry pple, learning to network and sign deals, learning to invest in stocks, shares, commodities, real estate, etc...
It makes me wonder, is life all about making big bucks?
Maybe it's cos i've been leading a comfortable life all my 23years, i don't have the ambition or drive to be some high flyer. I don't have the ability either. All i want is a simple life for now. Next time, i won't know.
But still, my jobs have to be dictated, etc etc etc.....
This is WAY more stressful than studying for exams.
It's like i'm at some road intersection with tons of choices as to what's the next path i want.
Everytime i want to take a step in that direction, it floods over or disappears.
What's left is what i don't really want but what the 'dictator' wants for me.
SIGH.
Oh well... i'll leave it to the lord to guide me.
Oh, and i'm no longer on diet.
Cutting down food doesn't drop my weight anymore.
Anyway i'm finally at 49.
So now it's exercise.... i'll still cut down on carbo though.
But i won't avoid junk food anymore. XD
EVERYTHING is dictated.
The pressure is seriously suffocating.
WHY are expectations always so high?
Why can't we humans lead simple lives?
Sometimes i dunno who i hate more.
Myself for being such a loser, my dad for being such a dictator, or society for all the expectations they have on my generation.
Went for the NAC2012 talk cos 4th uncle was strongly recommending it.
On one hand, i gained general knowledge. On the other hand, i look around me and see all the money hungry pple, learning to network and sign deals, learning to invest in stocks, shares, commodities, real estate, etc...
It makes me wonder, is life all about making big bucks?
Maybe it's cos i've been leading a comfortable life all my 23years, i don't have the ambition or drive to be some high flyer. I don't have the ability either. All i want is a simple life for now. Next time, i won't know.
But still, my jobs have to be dictated, etc etc etc.....
This is WAY more stressful than studying for exams.
It's like i'm at some road intersection with tons of choices as to what's the next path i want.
Everytime i want to take a step in that direction, it floods over or disappears.
What's left is what i don't really want but what the 'dictator' wants for me.
SIGH.
Oh well... i'll leave it to the lord to guide me.
Oh, and i'm no longer on diet.
Cutting down food doesn't drop my weight anymore.
Anyway i'm finally at 49.
So now it's exercise.... i'll still cut down on carbo though.
But i won't avoid junk food anymore. XD
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