discipline....

shit.
When will i ever learn.
when will i ever know when to control myself.
useless.
~MeHhz~

Rabbit Card.....

I don't care, i'm not gonna restrict myself from blogging le. Why was i stupid enough to block off an avenue of destress? haha... Was damn sian and just picked up the card on my table to read it again... And i realised how applicable it is. thx gal! =)

Today life gave you another slap

but don't give up

throwing your towel in the ring

for things gone wrong, for words that sting

'cos there must be another way

you will see it in the light of another day

When everything seems sour, not in your favour

look around until you find a better flavour

so, don't just give but live it up

pick up the pieces, be tough

grind your teeth and turn another cheek

don't give it up, that's exactly what they seek

It's too easy to walk away

quitter never wins so you should better stay

look challenges straight in the eye

don't say yet the last good-bye

fight like an animal in a trap

but don't give it up

~MeHhz~

sigh...

It's becoming increasingly difficult to study.
Wasted my tues and wed....
Thurs and friday, mugged with yw.
Productive, yes, but not enough.
There's so many things i wanna blog about.
But after soo long, i don't rmb anymore.
Oh. had a nice long chat on monday night.
had master's list interview on thurs.
had a great lunch with indy on tues.
plus 2nd time How to train Ur Dragon 3D.
i'm nuts.
i know.
life is sooooo complicated.
with relationships, aims, struggles, etc...
Can i not grow up at all?
I'm feeling the heavy pressure of being deemed as a failure (soon i think).
And it makes me just wanna give up everything, stop struggling and BE a failure.
And start from scratch, with no one expecting ANYTHING from a failure.
is that possible?
I'm sure i'll do much better under such circumstances.
But hell no. U can't redo life.
At home today. missed Floorball MM treat.
Damn. 2nd time.
Well.. i'm only supposed to blog once between my last post and coming friday (29/4). So i guess this is it. Monday's test was shitty. all that mugging i did, i still can't do well. I guess it's gonna be the same for the rest of the 5 papers. urgh.
I don't want to mug.
but still, i must.
~MeHhz~
edit: it's not funny. it's not fun. stop treating me like that. i'm not a toy. i'm a human. don't come to me for such things. am i only such an avenue? pls.

NO MORE

K. From now till after 29th april.
NO MORE BLOGGING.
k. maybe i'll blog once.
But that's all.
SHERI WILL STUDY.
enough of internet.
~MeHhz~

thanks

I'm quite sure u don't come here anymore.
But still, thanks.
Thanks for asking me to motivate myself.
Thanks for helping me find motivation.
U might not be aware of how helpful it was.
But thanks.
I'm sick and tired of pple telling me to mug.
Telling me to study hard to do well in exams.
Thanks for motivating me, instead of simply: GO MUG.
~MeHhz~

10more days....

yup. 10 more days to finals.
2 more days to 2101 last test.
Mugged with yw yesterday at ikea. =)
Loved the freeflow coffee!!
No matter, mugging with her was still the most productive.
I guess this sem's finals are my most stressful ones.
sooo many things are at stake.
Hall stay not confirmed, cos i was unsuccessful.
also, if my results are not good, my parents won't let me stay,
Even if i got on master's list (which i highly doubt i will :X )
Letting me go japan, if i flunk my exams, they'll go on & on...
About how i nvr put in effort, let me go japan also no use, etc.
Also, i'm taking 2 JS mods....
which results will determine if i should minor in JS or not.
And i reallly really need to pull up my cap.
But judging from the mugging progress i have, i'm doubtful.
Very. and i'm still so ill-disciplined.
Where did that hardworking sheri go now?
i don't want to grow up.
Can i return to JC days? or Sec sch days?
~MeHhz~
If results = being filial, can i not be your daughter?
The pressure u give me, the guilt u make me go through, it's becoming unbearable.

naiteru?

Just watched 'Go!'.
A japanese movie which my GEM exam tests on.
It's weird, how people can be discriminated just because of their nationality. Especially when one cannot even tell if their japanese or not. To avoid, to be afriad of, to shun a person whom u've known for a period, just because u realised he's of different nationality. To not call an ambulance just because the person dying is not a japanese. This is totally screwed. I'm glad the ending was good. But still, it's really stupid to label zainichi's as dirty blood.
~MeHhz~

lost....

i think i somehow lost a part of me ever since i entered uni.
I'm giving up easily,
i'm accepting the fact that i'm stupid,
i'm nonchalant when i realise how smart pple are.
This is not me.
Or not me till 2008.
have i changed?
or am i plain lazy.
can i push myself more?
what will i get?
Just disappointment as usual right?
i dunno anymore....
i'll just do my part.
sigh.
2101 STARTS ON MON.
~MeHhz~

mugging starts.......

so much for sleeping early.
I''m still awake at this time.
I am sooooo in need of 10hours of sleep.
But meeting yw to mug at 1030am tmr.
I MUST MUG! :X
So i shall be guai and not have my beauty sleep.
Keep it for tmr night.
Argh... i think it's impossible for me to sleep early!
Always dilly dally around... =.=''
anyway. left with gem report due on thurs.
Progess: too much, exceeded word limit.
Time to cut down~
Then quiz on next sat. MUST MUG HARD!
i got a week to mug. pls. sheri. mug!
Kk... after mugging session tmr i FINALLY get to watch movie!!
How to Train your Dragon!!!
i get to watch it too~ Whee!
SLEEP! NOW!
I'm falling sick... Noooo~
~MeHhz~

die die die die die....

2135 tmr.
I can't focus.
No, it's nothing to do with the laptop.
It's just, i'm staring at the tutorial and my brain's not functioning.
ARGH!
that's the effects of sleeping 4hours the past 2 days.
shall go sleep now.
Wake up at 7am to mug.
10am lecture.
12pm test.
2pm lunch.
3pm 200 words on religion and it's effect on japanese suicide.
AND I CAN SLEEP~!
hopefully i don't die as badly as last time.
I'm surrounded by smartasses.
i am so screwed.
~MeHhz~

aha.

i'm not surprised.
but still it sucks.
i should get used to it by now.
but somehow...
i refused to accept.
last try?
i dunno anymore.
It's easy for pple to say.
well, talking is cheap.
but cos they never experienced it,
it gets irritating hearing from them.
still, it's my fault right?
what am i doing.
~MeHhz~

Dance Unsensored.

Completed:
-Japan day1 planning.
-General plans for tokyo days
-SS references
-Read thru SS essay (nothing to edit! Whee~)
-Fluids 3.1-3.4
-last lab report (YES!!!)
-gem tutorial

Kk... considering the fact that i'm gonna sleep @ such a crazy time.
I've not done much.
2114 still not finished mugging yet. :X
so dead tmr. or rather later today.

Went for dance unsensored today.
SUPER NICE. i love the choreo, the dressings, the music...
Although dressing-wise, it got kinda sian to keep seeing black and white outfits, or formal suits, or waiter-like vests.... but when it's colourful, it's damn nice.
Contemp outfits were quite unique for some items. =)
RH comtemp(with simyee, liling, clement, and 3 others) was great! Thierry's outift in his item was distractingly, amazingly eye-catching. LOL.
KR US-based hip-hop was fabulous (plus that koike-look-alike guy~) Woots!
Was it temasek? or Shears? that had the chess pieces concept?
That was cool. But choreo was so-so only. kinda messy too.

Rawr~ anyway. Time for a quick shower.
then sleep. :X 5hrs... Zzzz.... i must be crazy.
~MeHhz~
Sometimes, it hurts to see this is what has become of the both of u. The avoiding, the emo-ing, the disappearing. Why must relationships be so complicated?

Freak out~

Ahhhhhh......
long weekends ended!!!!!
WTH WTH WTH!!!
2 tests coming up, not finished with mugging yet.
2 essays due.... still abit shaky...
japan day1 settling to do...
lab report due~
Sucky week ahead man!
I'm SOOOO dead.

Mugged with YW on fri.
At least i finished first 1/2 of fluids part2.
then met meng together for dinner! =)

Jeans b'day on sat!
Woots~ lovely house, cute bird, disappearing cat.
LOL! plus a jean clone!

AHHHHH~ and i've yet to eat @ sumo house.
haha.. kk..random.
Time to go listen to webcast on bode plots~
~MeHhz~

Attached~

Attached. Finally. =)




After so long.....





I thought i'll never get the chance.





to....




attach these photos to my blog.
What were u all thinking?
It's April Fool's Day!
XD
kk.. maybe it's a failed attempt to fool u all.
Aha~
anyway.. pics!
First up: Flowers i bought for Chinese New Year~ =)

Next: Was mugging with YW @ manpuku last time...
I thought the arrangement on the ceiling was very nice and artistic~
School life (Jenny and Brandy~):
disgusting bike proj discussion in my room.
Candid shots of them both~
Lecture time, rufus photo session:
CUTE~!!!

Lecture Theatre 7~ Nice ceiling~

OMG~ the Miku (Vocaloid) car in Raffles Hall Carpark~ XD

Dining @Malacca Hotel (Hotel Ramadan)...
It's a 5 star hotel i think, buffet >> SGD $17+ per person.
SO CHEAP!! haha...
My mum and my cute grandma~ =)

Out for Lunch with Jenny and Eveline~
Went to botejyu @ Liang court! Wonderful okonomiyakis~!
But eat till damn full and jia lat. haha....
My sausage cheese okos!

Jenny's Shrimp okos~!

Eveline's pork okos~! We are soooo gonna go Japan and eat authentic ones!

Just something i happen to dig up~ =)
Do you rmb this JacQ~? XD those were the days....
Raffles Hall Stuff~
Ever seen this in a queue?
SITTING on a chair while queue-ing for supper~
Kevin Tay FTW~ haha... so uncle lar!

And~!!!! Chip and Dale having CHICKEN!!!! XD
AND~! RH DINNER AND DANCE PICS~ =)
In NUS alumni house~

Picture with MISS RAFFLES (liling!) ~

Camwhore Shots! we took 1 hour worth of pics. LOL.
Check out the rest in facebook. XD
Deal or no Deal Style~

Gossip Girl cover page style~

Smiling Version.......... =)
And LAST BUT NOT LEAST~
My CLEAN and BATHED HUSBAND!!!

Done with pics for now!

There's still the Indy photoshoot pics i've yet to get.

And also pictures of my newly-renovated RH room.

I've yet to pack my room and take pics... haha...

when i'm free i'll do that.

Cheers~

~MeHhz~