I need the determination i lack...

SHOOTING RANGE [@TPJC]

Lolx! Nice ambience right? All thanks to sean's photography skills.. Haha..
Anyway, today was teacher's day celebration. Thinking back, i was never really close with many teachers. and the one whom i was closer to is no longer in AHS, so i see no point in returning there.

Anyway, after the celebration, wanted to go out with rumin and cathy to catcha movie at bugis.. As usual, mum say cannot.. Haiz.. I"ve resigned to fate. Always being controlled and treated like a small kid. i surrender. So in the end i joined Yw's class for lunch!! was super fun.. But... Just wanna say sorry to rm and mao for not being able to follow u. It wasn't my choice. Haix...
But eating at the hong kong restuarant with 06S19 was fun.. thankfully all are friendly and i know most of them so not so extra.. :X was really fun.. :P

Hmm.. Really wanted to kill xf today for the bus incident.. Gosh.. I gonna be so dead on tues when i next meet rm and mao.. They'll be going on and on bout...., saying that i dun jion them cos of....! Sighs.. it's fun enuf with shooting members or s19 pple cos we know each other. but add up my class... [speechless] :X

Anyway, 1 week to prelims left. I guess i wont be blogging anymore till after that. Really gotta mug. Seriously, seeing the determination u have everyday makes me wanna work harder. BUt everytime i reach home, i slack. Now, i must really learn from u. Concentrate, study. it's kinda scary seeing u mug so hard all of a sudden. It's like seeing a different u.. But u still play hard!! So well, really envy u... From u,i believe i've gained alot. Thank you.

MeHhz~
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We will never walk together over the fields of earth,
Never hear the birds in the morning.
Oh, I have lived with you and loved you
And now you are gone away,
Gone where i cannot follow
Until I have finished all my days.
-The Seer and the Sword, by Victoria Hanley

Long Passed...

Hmm.. Well... I know my b'dae has long past.. But i just wanna thank these few friends who gave me presents (though late..but that's TPSC culture.. Haha!)
Anyway, check this out, given by Shooting club, the usual people... Heex...

This present was given to me in that box above.. And in it, are 18 components.. Haha.. My age.. and the most meaningful of all, was the glass bottle at the bottom left.. In it were notes.. Written by all of them.. So sweet!! <<33

Then Jie Lin, Jie Hui, Kai Wen and Valerie also gave me present! A deathnote box set consisting of a deathnote book, a movie booklet and a deathnote pen! So cool!! and on top of that(literally), there was the SHANA anime figurines!! Though i haven't gotten the chance to complete that anime, i still loved the characters!!

A closer look.. :D Anyway, i know i've said thanks alot of times already, but still wanna thank thosewho gave me such meaningful presents, wished me and celebrated with me. Thank you... :P Oh yah! Aunt. Chris also gave me ANG BAO... =P I'm richer now..haha..

MeHhz~

Additional...

AQUOS [CLockwise from top left: HongYi(hoi), JacQ, Pris, me!]

Well.. Too lazy to update my post bout AQUOS celebration of me b'day.. So well, check it out at the A.Q.U.O.S blog here: http://home-of-aquos.blogspot.com/

Moi D'dae~~

Woohoo!! So HAPPYE!!! Thanks everyone, for ur sms'es, friendster comments, birthday wishes, presents, cakes, etc.... lurve all of ya!! Here's my take on the day!! Thanks!!All my fav stuff!! :D Here's the detailed description... First up, given to me early friday morning, by my 2 old friends, Yi Wei and Zi Jie.. ZI JIE!! can u believe it? Haha.. Anyway, real thanks to both of them. Really love it!! And the dog is just soooo adorable!! Haha.. Here's the pic:

Thanks for the card too, Yi wei...

Next, given by my classmates: Rumin, Cathy and Geraldine on friday.. Hwee ling also baked a cheesecake fer me.. But din get a chance to take pic.. sorry... But the cake was delicious..Haha.. i dun have ta take lunch. :PCaptive Heart comics, by Matsuri Hino, the author of Vampire Knight! and also, Wang wang makes me fat! Haha.. Check out the Bleach Poster too! and beside it, the prince of tennis L-shape folder.. And the S keychain, though not obvious.. AND most importantly, the orange paper bag that the presents where being put in.. Lolx! got so many of my pictures on it.. So pai seh when i carry it..haha. Here's the close up on one side:
Then, these are wad i recieved today, by my AQUOS family: Went out with them fer lunch... Plus randall too!! haha.. But too bad no pics to upload cos their with Hoi. They even bought a cake for me which we cut in JacQ's house.. Together with randall since his b'day on 21st.. Will upload the pics when i get them. But here's the gifts they gave:

Check out Pris's drawing of Vampire Knight!! Woohoo~!

Then i went home.. then my dear bro bought a cake for me.. :D So well here's a pic of the Cake, from Baker's Inn..

And also, here's the gift from my parents: Kinokuniya VOUCHER!! and ANG BAO! Plus ROYCE chocolate from my dear bro!! Mmm~ [Smacks lips]..haha.... My Fav chocolate!! Thanks BRo!

And then! Auntie Emily came with Ervin and Kelly to pass me my present:
2 Op Tees, and a key chain from Kelly and Mandy!

AND! 4 balls, free gift when u buy 2 large packets of lays chips... Check out how they look in the dark!!

Cool rite!! Haha.. Though i'm like already 18, but i was still playing with my bro with these balls in the dark cos their reallly cool!! Haha.. Anyway, aunty Em and my cousins stayed till bout 10pm, so i dun really do any hw.. Or rather i did nothing at all.. But who cares.. I wanna slack fer today! Anyway, to end off on a light note, check out wad my cousins did to my whiteboard... Haha. Tok about retardedness.. Look at this!

This beats everything!! Haha.. Anyway, super happy today!! Thanks to all!

Elated MeHhz~

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS!! cum SHOOTING HANDOVER!!!

[JUst to emphasise my HAPPINESS]

Today's celebration fer NATIONAL DAY!!!! so i'll just say in advance, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! You're my country, my home, where i find friends whom i really treasure and love.. Thank you!!
Today was fun.. Though the games we had to play was really quite boring and my class seem to end up in wrong stations, the singing of national day songs were super duper fun!! THE WHOLE SCHOOOL stood up and sang, all so enthu, so united as one.. Loved that feeling. Then my class guys even ran around the whole hall in circles, holding on to each other's shoulder, in one straight row.. LOLx! So fun...

Next, was shooting handover ceremony... Waited from 12 plus to 2.30.. So went to Blk 201 mac to eat first, with Yu Ling, Eliz, Shi Yong and Ben.. ah... seeing SY and Ben together, so happy for them.. They so sweet!! Anyway, shooting handover ceremony was a blast! The juniors handled it so well, and gave us such meaningful presents: A good quality box from IKEA, with sweets and personal notes from most of them.. Then we got our Eastzone national's trophies too!! :D Will upload the photo when i get the chance, cos now haven't received them yet. Took a group photo.. Then they also catered for us KFC... TPSC RAWKZ BIG TIME!
After all these celebrations, we went to play basketball for awhile, b4 getting chased out of school cos gate is about to be locked.. then! we went toBugis... [Me, Shi Yong(SY), Kenneth(peng you), Eliz(one of the squatters), Xiao Fang(xf) and Yu Ling(YL)] The six of us FAMILY.. haha... >.<

Had a real great time walking around and chatting.. followed Peng You to see his collection of guns from action city, wanted to buy for him as b'dae present, but he insisted on buying it himself... Haiz. like that we still need to crack our brains to think of wad to buy for him.. Grrr.. Then being so tired we just went to a small cafe, bought drinks and sat down to chat.. Crapped about everything under the sun.. from shooting stuff, to school teachers, to favourite cars(eliz-jeep, me-mazda-RX8, others-not sure.. :p), then to other rubbish. Really thank god that i've mangaed to find such a nice bunch of close friends. Life would never be the same without them... Then billabong(marcus) came to find eliz, wearing a billabong shirt AGAIN! LOLx! After awhile, we went home....
Really, today was one of my happiest days in JC life. From the bottom of my heart, i wanna thank all of you that made my day. And YES, SY! Let's all,shooter's, show the school that we can excel academically too! Jia you~
p.s: I'll upload shooting pics when i get them.

Happy MehHz~

Screwed

Chopper.. [Wonder where is he now]

See the cute dog? Was breed by my uncle.. Now also dunno where he is..

Anyway, just felt like blogging. Although i dunno wad to type.. I Promised not to be emo anymore.. So well.. Back to the norm me.. Though i really dun feel like it.. Haha.. Studies start to seem dull again... I can't seem to concentrate..The reason: Somethings in my head, just can't get it off, but it's my own fault, so well, Just HAVE to force me-self to concentrate. I better put in more effort b4 i let my parents down again. Seeing others concentrate so well in school, i wonder wads wrong with me. Even the crappy peng you studies into the evening in school library... GRR!! i must start now... 71 chapters b4 prelims!! Gosh!

Oh yah.. Just noticed the similarity btw terrence and Peng you... Both have almost the same actions.. Haha.. equally retarded. Though according to yw, Peng you knows when to stop his nonsense while terrence doesn't.. LOLx! Anyway, still more used to peng you crapping..Haha... Miss shooting.. And my husband: R18 725088... Haha.. who is a Bi.. Cos i share him with Peng You.. :D

MeHhZ~

Live Life to the Fullest...

FFVII Advent's Children [Cloud & Tifa]

Just realized how fragile life can be... never thought i would have to attend another funeral wake so soon, since 2 years ago, the death of my maternal granddad... This morning, at 6am, just received a phone call saying that my family friend just passed away in a bus accident. Just so sudden. It's just been a week ago that i last saw him. Now, all's left is his wife and 2 kids, one sec 4, the other sec 2.
This made me think about life as a whole.. Everything is so unpredictable... In just a split second, A life can be lost.... Now all the troubles which i felt seem to be so insignificant compared to the grieve my 'cousins' and aunt are going through and the troubles they have to face in the near future. Father Lord, please watch over them and keep them save. Give them the courage to live on happily in dear memory of their deceased father. Bless them and guide them. Thank You.

These few days seem to be a dream. Conclusion: Not going school kinda sucks. I dun complete anything and can't seem to spur myself to study. But that's not going to be the case now. For the sake of my parents, and my future, i will study (will i really?) ... Please let me be able to concentrate and at least be able to finish those back-logged work. あぃ の ために, がんばって ね!

P.S: 私は 大好き の人 ほ "うちぎ の たべもの" です. でも, かれは あたし 好き じゃない. 私は かれの ともだち だけ.. T.T

MeHhz~

My thoughts.....

[Just a pic to reflect the feelings of this post]

Before i start my nonsense and type all the rubbish, let me just say that this blog is only known to close friends of mine.. though cos i din blog for a long time, no one checks here.. So, just ignore wad i'm saying if u happen to chance upon this blog. I'm usually not so emo... Pls dun gossip about wad i type here.

[Jokers' Wild]
[AQUOS]

Hmm.. JUst suddenly miss the wonderful times i shared with all my friends.. Those who truly cared for me and treated me with love and respect.. Let me start from my sec 2 years.. Met 3 good friends.. Pris, Shi ying, Yi wei.. Did crazy stuff with them and really loved the times we spent. remember entering the school's talent time contests and we emerged as first!! We dance 3 songs- ai de zhu da ge by elva, qiang shen by 5566 and also wu xie ke ji by energy. Gosh! How i missed those times.. And i realised then, how much i love dancing.. But cos of my size, i daren't pursue it.(who likes seeing ('(00)') [pigs] dancing, WaDEvEr..) Anyway, back to my sec skool life. The next group i met was SDTTBOP, a.k.a ENJOY, a.k.a AQUOS, consisting of hoi, jacq, pris, cai yu, debbie, and me! These are my Choir buddies,pple who shared my joy in singing and love the harmonious melody that resounds when voices come together. In AHS, these where the pple that made my life fun, enjoyable and fulfilling. Unfortunately, now we are all in different JC's, can't meet up often cos of stupid studies. I LOVE U PPLE.. I thank god for having met all of u... my da jie(shiying who had the same b'day as me), my ah bu (pris), my only friend who came to TPJC with me (Yi wei), my cute and talented friend (Jacq), my bookworm buddy (hoi). LOVED the times we spent together.... T.T

[TJC 17/06]

Now, on to the next grp. JC friends. Went to TJC in the first 3 months, wasn't able to mix well till weeks later, i loved them too. They were so crappy, yet fun and matured. Never known a class like them. When i next went to TPJC, i felt they paled in comparison to these 17/06 class. I still miss them now. But at least 06S17 in TPJC i now better, pple there are not as cold, but then cliques still exist. Their fine, friendly, caring , and lovely, but at times, still distant. Fine.... WADEVER>> The thing that made my day in TPJC is TPJC SHOOTING CLUB. The members are all so crappy!! Fun! Loving! Responsible! Anything you can ask for from a friend. It all started with Kenneth's :'' WE are FAMILY!'' quote... that brought out the warmth of everyone, then was the camp, where we became closer. Eliz was named rabbit, for eating so much carrots.. then Kenneth suddenly became Kenneth the Karrot, sending out application forms to be his gilfriend. So crap.. Haha.. Then during the blading outing that only shiyong, nerf and me went, shiyong became daughter of nerf, but nerf called her honey.. Haha.. so funny. And i became the poor maid, maria.. LOLx!! Then now, the 3 of us are PENG YOU! K[SY]²... Not to forget, there's my girls rifle team that strived together with me to win the NATIONALs gold award. (Eliz-2nd in nationals, Caixiang-3rd in nationals, eveline, and me!!) And that evil coach we have!!

[Air Rifle Team + Evil coach = National Champion 2007, A' Divisions]

Now, all CCA has ended, The joy of JC has now been taken away from me. Life seems meaningless when you cram work into ur head, all for the sake of stupid results in A's... my class seem to be so meaningless. no fun at all. thankfully, there's yiwei class to study with, shi yong and eliz.... Oh yah! Shiyong and Ben are together now!! Woohoo!! So happy for them! :D

Here's the part i'll start wallowing in self-pity... Gimme a chance to do that once awhile. I cant remain cheery and happy for 24/7. I'm not always the worry-free gal i portray myself to be.
[Kk.. deleted those super emo thots.. Kindda wierd...]

Some unspoken thoughts.. Better to leave them as they are...

Emo MeHhz, For once~

I wanna SCREAM!!!!!

[Just a nice pic. dunno the anime]


RAWRRR!!!! Really wanna blog about so many things, but not today. Too much work to do.. So many unspoken thoughts, things to ponder on, both disturbing and happy incidents.. Some reflections to do.. i promise myself to blog it all out in the next 2 days. Gosh.. I hate the new timetable. I hate myself. Wadever....

MeHhz~