Screwed.

I had totally forgotten about RESULTS DAY. with all the unpacking stuff, i only remembered it on the 28th. Well. i died. Once again. As badly. nothing else to say. I daren't go on msn. Friends will start asking. Well, to those who know my previous score, i only improved by 0.03. Those who know my blog are the close ones, so... u all should know how badly i fared. Maybe i wont be joining hall activities next sem anymore. I dunno. I must have been daydreaming, to hope that i could score better. In actual fact, i'm still as stupid. maybe i didn't work hard? but i'm much much more prepared then last sem. fk-ed up. i let my parents down once again. just as useless as before.
~depressedMeHhz~

boring....

And so.. i wasted my WHOLE MONTH OF MAY HOLIDAYS unpacking stuff. Not that i take sooo long to unpack my hall stuff, but rather, cos of my home's HDB ungrading done, my family's shifting back. spent about 4 days unpacking my own stuff. But the rest of the time, helping them clean this, clean that, wipe here, mop there, scrub this and that. Then follow my dad around the house drilling brackets and installations, bearing with his high and mighty temper, then constant scoldings. Absolute sianess... Yeah, i shouldnt sulk, i know. But still. WHERE'S MY HOLIDAY!!! one whole month wasted. No anime, drama, manga, tv, internet, outings, jio-ing friends. RAWR!!!
Anyway.... i should bear with it... Come june, i should be done. And at least i get to date yw this thurs, meet aquos for a uber short dinner last wed. And next week (JUNE already!), cash studio with eveline. I can't wait for june~
~MeHhz~

Super uber duper fuber long post.

So this marks the end of uni life year 1. Semester 2 passed in a blink of an eye. Was supposed to work hard this sem and do well. BUT. i think i flunked as usual. hopefully i'ld do better then sem 1, as i'm sure i did put in more effort. But... still... *cross fingers*

I guess sem 2 were full of memorable stuffs, both good and bad. Good things first, enjoyed raffles hall company to the max. Indy suppers, floorball games, ihg, Rh dinner and dance, dance uncensored, study sessions, crapping sessions, karaoke sessions... out of RH, mugging with outside friends (both from and not from nus), crapping, And lastly, staying in RH without going home every 2 days. haha... Bad stuff, some uber irritating incidents, my screwed up results, my lack of motivation, etc...

Anyway, main highlights are, studying with Indy people at the upperlounge/attic during recess week. See? pictures taken from anna's blog.Tables, joined, aircondition, plus friends. Occasional crappings to liven up the mood. =) I love them!

And! Karaoke sessions with indy! that's the last outing after sem2 before everyone went back to their individual homes! Surprisingly there were really alot of pple that came, those from indy and those adopted. Pity some couldn't come. those who went were: hs, crystal, liling, anna, me, john, jy, awl, looi, kevin, andrew, jen sern, abel. And kenneth joined us for dinner. Woots~! great outing! pity i felt guilty if i stayed out late, so opted to return to RH early after dinner. :X No pics, but seriously, i enjoyed it totally, singing old songs, new songs, lame songs, and even hearing kevin sing! haha...

Now, life feels so.... dull, nothing to do. Kay, maybe not nothing to do, but nothing very interesting. Living at my uncle's house now, since my HDB upgrading is not done yet. But was kept busy this week cleaning up the house and helping with certain installations in the house. Freaking hot weather, ended up being glued to my lappy when i've nothing to do. Haven't watched any anime surprisingly, no mood. i'll be busy unpacking this whole week and probably next week too. I'll start dating old friends sometime next week onwards. friends like aquos, yw, shooting buddies, tpjc classmates, etc...

Oh yah! totally hooked on this drama called BLOODY MONDAY. after watching this drama, its like other drama's feel sooo uninteresting.. haha.. I've yet to find one that's as interesting. Imagine, computer genius, hacking into security sites, and what not, coupled with terrorist groups with bioweapons, suspensive storyline, twists here and there. friendship bonds are tested, moral values re-evaluated, doubts arising. There's a possibilty of the whole japan being wiped out. Pure suspense and mystery. plus great actor and actresses.

That's falcon symbol (representing that hacker),

and that's the shuai ge genuis hacker.

And his sis is soo cute! but i can't find a pic. :X and here's a fan-made trailer clip.

Anyway, that's the update on my life so far.... Now... thank you notes to all my NUS friends, who helped me in sem 2 one way or another. though not many will read this :)

hweeshan - hey les partner! haha... thanks for everything, helping me with you know what, chatting together, playing, chilling, eating, etc.. XD kk.. i wont skip meals liao... You too! dun eat sooo little! XD

crystal - my japanese fan buddy... To tell you the truth, i've always admired ur straightforwardness and confidence. thanks for sharing animes like graviation, and carry on rockin on ur bass!

yi shiean - hey~! u're the adopted indy member, but u're already one of us no matter what... =) was great talking to you, somehow it just seems so easy to crap and chit chat with you although i seldom mix with you! haha.. All the best in academics! Jia you!

jia yong - Mr! Seriously, i'm very grateful to you. Helping indy so much, for ur xiao long bao treat, for ur crappings during study week to keep us entertained, and for ur constant advise to study. =) Somehow, u're like 'indy papa'.. haha.. although u name urself emo kiddo. but dun so emo le k? XD

weiliang - hey... thanks for sharing many things and helping me in certain ways.. Hopefully u have free time apart from work during ur overseas trip. *winks* XD and thanks for intro-ing me to floorball. =) god bless!

cui wen - though i din see u in sem 2, but much laughter was reduced due to your absence! Hope to see u soon in sem 3. Take care!

brandon - Brandy~! thanks for all ur help thoughout uni year 1... I'm so glad u're my coursemate.. XD haha.. can disturb u when i dun understand... and it's been great sharing music and crappings with u... though i think next sem i wont be seeing u much, esp since we both are not staying hall. (and i dun wanna be lightbulb during lectures. :P)

kevin - thanks for ur 'deep voice' which provided lotsa fun in indy meetings. And u can sing!!! haha... all the best in TH. Da bao sheares supper back for us k? *wat duh..*

john - Hey hey~! all the best for ur statistics!! XD and have fun learning singlish! master it soon k? XD

yeow kheng - hey mr! thanks so much for ur help in all the modules... haha.. it's been fun crapping with you. Though sometimes ur questions ARE weird. haha... all the best in everything u do!

liling - my fellow blk 3 mate! XD haha.. thanks for ur green tea agar agar!! and for pei-ing me during blk suppers! =) all the best in all u do!

anna - anna banana!! Seriously, i'm very awed by ur love for architecture and ur ability to not sleep and chiong all ur work, and yet be so active in hall stuff. I must learn from you!! God bless! and have fun back in malaysia!

abel - It's 12!! go sleep! haha... thanks for constantly reminding us... though u always end up 'waking up' at 12 plus to join us for supper. haha... and thanks for putting in effort to organise the kota tinggi trip, though we din go in the end.. :X god bless!

andrew - haha... was fun singing when u conducted during carolling.. and thanks for telling me about how to appeal for RH stay and stuff, even though i can't get it.. But still, thanks. and for lending me the bandroom key always, and for cooking during indy suppers! XD

looi - although i never talked much to you. I was surprised to find out that u're from ME cos i tot u were EEE. And also surprisingly, u tot i was EEE when i'm from ME. Haha. It's been great studying at the RH attic, and thanks for ur advise on which paper to do. =) and ur floorball skills are Wow!

liewmin - ahh.... never see u this semester. All the best in everything k? =)

kenneth - hey~ my tpjc senior... haha.. nice knowing u in sem 2. was fun joking around... XD and THANKS for the mno text, although i din really read it, cos diff syllabus.

Rafflesians - Whoever you are, it's been great knowing you. Raffles hall is a major part of my uni life, and i really dun wanna leave it. But unfortunately, i can't stay due to insufficient points. I thoroughly enjoyed my stay in this one year. and hopefully i can go back there in sem2. (dunno why i haven't recieved and acceptance or rejection email regarding master's list though)

aquos - whee~! everyone of us are in nus!! but u all are in fass.. haix.. seldom got to me u all. But whenever i see u all, it always cheers me up! thanks dearies!

eveline - engin mate!!!!!! haha... it's been great attending lectures with you and sometims listen to ur cynical comments!! haha.. it's always fun crapping with u and complaining together. Plus! discussing jrock! XD Lets go cash studio soon!!!

yiwei - yeah.. u're not from nus, but u bunked in nus b4!! haha... lurve ya dear, for listening to me complain and for always being there for me. all the best with ehem. XD

WHEW. all messages typed. now for my rants!!! :X

Sometimes, i'm really wondering, how much a sheltered life i've been living in. So much so that, now, i'm at a loss as to what to do. I'm 20 this year. I CHOSE mechanical engineering as my first choice. I got in. But i'm screwing up my modules. It's not lack of interest, but rather, i'm lazy. Orly? Am i kidding myself cos i refuse to admit i made the wrong decisions? Or rather, i'm at this point in time of my life that i'm just clueless as to what i should do, where my interest truly lies, and what i should do. i seem interested in things i'm lousy at, and 'uninterested' in things i'm good at, so in the end, i'll still do badly due to lack of interest. Seeing how professional my friends can be, at my age, working in jobs that are stressful, or with huge responsibilities, i always feel weird. It's like, i can never imagine myself doing such things. I guess i am a spoilt brat after all, although i used to think i'm well brought up. Father lord, please guide me. Show me my path in life and walk with me. This 3 months break, first month will be wasted unpacking stuff for my home. The next 2 months, what can i achieve? Please, guide me along.

Yay~! i've finally blogged all i want! XD whee~! thanks for reading, if u actually read all the way. haha... cheers!
~Mehhz~

Short update

been wanting to blog for ages, but never gotten the chance. My parents are always around, now that my whole family is sharing a room in my uncle's house. Guess i've been a phantom for this one week cos my dad's lappy doesnt have msn, and meebo doesn't seem to work. Lotsa stuff to update, but i shall blog it another time when can freely take my time to type. Sem2 reflections... lotsa stuff. anyway, been thoroughly addicted to a drama called BLOODY MONDAY. sounds bloody, but it's not. super interesting, bout computer hacking, terrorist bioweapons, etc. And can see shuai ge. haha.. Check out the jap drama, its only 11 episodes. Can watch it at www.mysoju.com. =)
I'll update soon!
~Mehhz~

shyte

i was confident of that subject. But now i realised, i dont remember a thing. And there's not enough time. Argh!!! there goes my fav module. I'm soooo gonna flunk it tmr. Shoots. I can't concentrate now... die die die die die...

yah.yah.yah.

I should be mugging/asleep. sigh.. i'm in holiday mood. when i still have 2 papers. I just finished a manga.... Super nice ending~ :X ooopx. i should be mugging. Haha. K. sleeping time now. mno mugging tmr. eg1108 mugging on sunday. examination time on monday. after 7pm..... INDY PLAY TIME or ANIME or J DORAMA or JROCK or MOVIES or just anything~ woots. Finally. So many things i wanna do....
Animes i should complete/catch up include code geass2, naruto shippuden, bleach, K-ON, SA, and skip beat. AND rewatch initial D anime (1st to 3rd stage). Haha. just played the game on my cousin's psp. OMG. i miss the seeing mazda Rx-7 race, seeing takumi thrash those egoistic punks with his skills, listening to the eurobeat background tracks.. and most of all, the DRIFTINGS!! haha.. the mangaka/animator is damn pro lah! the night races, the time attacks, etc... woots~! *drools*
K. i should not be daydreaming~ time to dream in my sleep. haha. and wake up tmr to listen to lehman's wonderful lectures i've recorded. Haha.
(and watch legend of the condor heroes at 7.30pm oh shyte. so much for mugging.)
~MeHhz~