Sayonara 08, Irrashaimase 09....

2008.... Was when i had to say bye to JC life... This was the training field tat we shooters had run for physical training. I'm not joking when i say i really miss it. Haha.. But i miss the company and shooting range more... Anyway, A lvl's ended. Was complaining about not being able to get a job (refer to old posts.. XD)... But thankfully i could give tuition. Anyway, it was just a super slack time for me, 2008 that is... While others are slogging their way through work, i'm slacking and playing with my student(note no 's'). Achievements of the time b4 uni started?
1) Slacked
2) Met lotsa pple from cosplay forum and jrock forum. Learnt alot from them, esp the jrock pple. The way to analyse good bands from bad ones, differentiate melodic metal from heavy metal, mainstream rock from anguro rock, etc... These skills, i picked up from them, though i'm still considered a noob.
3) Read lotsa manga, but i lost interest in anime, unfortunately. :X
4) Learn piano, got back my interest in it
5) Picked up guitar, at least i know the basics properly
Well.. I guess that's all. Kinda pathetic comparing to wad some of my peers have gone through. What i seriously missed was the chance to get working experience. But i shant rant about that any longer. That was the past. Then come uni... Life was great. Really. Going to Raffles Hall was blessing to me. I've come to know many great friends. Friends who taught me fun, seriousness, company and unity. Mostly from my OG grp. Point form of uni life.
1) Days of orientation. i lurve my OG. Yes, they are lame, great companions and stress relievers.
2) Beginning of school. Breezed through first month of uni. But became way too slack.
3) Started getting into trouble with studies, no self discipline, etc..... Still dared to go for suppers.
4) Joined concert music (great experience. and i got a new music software), RH band(got to touch bass guitar at last, though i'm just a keyboardist), cultural committee (learnt to contact companies, etc... kinda bored though).
5) Was actively participating in activities. But my studies were affected, mainly cos i lack self discipline again.
6) Final exams. I totally screwed them. kinda given up.
7) Oh shit. i grew fatter. i lack stamina. i'm not even 30% of my fitness level in jc.
So conclusion to year 2008? It was a really bad year. A year of evidence to show my incapabilities and uselessness. To add to it, i think i kinda grew up. There seem to be so much responsibilities nowadays. No more study and rest and just do ur own job. Think about others, ur family, friends, etc... Dun give them more trouble. Dun just state ur views and hurt others. Gotta juggle time between friends and family, etc.... With the control my parents have over me, it's kinda depressing. [like how everyone is out celebrating new year and i'm stuck at home. :X] But time and again, i've to convince myself, there are also many positive sides to this. "Just accept the fact that ur family is just super family-orientated and there's nothing u can do about it. Living in a hall is as much freedom as u can get. Not forgetting how much u INTENTIONALLY lied to got for suppers and indy sessions. Feeling guilty but continuing to do it is as far as u can go. Stop complaining." -- is wad i've gotta remind myself constantly.
But still it's thanks to GOD, indy, aquos, yw, sy, eveline, shooting peeps, and all my dear friends, that i'm not some emo kid (i think i will be if i dont have u pple) wallowing in self-criticism and stress. However, 2008, i've just been running away from everything. Face abit of problems, and i just chuck the whole matter aside.
2009 will be the year to make things right.
1) Buck up on ur freakin studies. No more manga's in the afternoon and skipping of maths lectures.
2) Organise ur freakin time properly and start exercising! Stop being a lazy bum.
3) Prac piano often, not 3hrs b4 ur lesson
4) DO ur tutorials before lessons.
5) Start revising jap
6) Go church regularly
7) Stop feeling negative about restrictions
8) Be a better person
K. That's all i have. Simple to type, but tough to complete. Hopefully i can do it. :X
Anyway, yw said a sentence to me that had quite an impact. " Wo hen pei fu ni leh... can keep everything [as in wad others confide in me] to urself". Sometimes, i really feel like i have no good points at all. But after yesterday and wad yw said today, i can gladly say, yep, my best point is that, i can seriously lend listening ears and not go spilling pple's secret all around. I guess that's the best thing i can offer to the pple who cared for me and to those who mean alot to me.
There's a drawback about this point though... I end up thinking alot about serious stuff... Haha.. but it's okay.... i learn more, i mature faster, i help my friends lessen their burden. ^^
Heh... this post is sooo long, so much radom stuff are being brought in. I just felt like typing out wadever i'm thinking, be it whether it has to do with year 2008-2009 or not.. haha... But here's an ultra serious bit (skip it, cos it's gonna bore u):
All in all, i'm thankful for god being there for me, guiding me. Through all my years of education, u were there for me. Please, give me the spirit of determination and help me live university life fruitfully. Into thy hands i commit myself. Guide me father lord. Amen.
Lastly, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL WHO'S READING!!
~Mehhz~

Ureshii

Something made my day.... ^^ totally unexpected. The last time it happened was in Pri 5 i think.. haha... I'm glad... thank god... There's some normal stuff to look forward too now... Thanks.
On top of that.... i'm finally free to meet friends. Yw later today, shooting peeps on sunday, and i'm gonna date aquos for a round of badminton soon!
~Elatedmehhz~

Merry Christmas~~~~~

Haruhi and friends [ Melancholy of SH]

Hmm.. This year's christmas feels weird... I totally dun have that chrismassy feeling i used to have every year.. Maybe its cos i was too busy with choir and stuff that i dun have time to shop for presents, help my mum wrap my cousin's presents, etc... It's kinda 'dead' this year. Even celebration at aunt chris house was kinda dull, no more singing, games, etc... Probably cos uncle mark is no longer around... (T.T)

Nonetheless, i still received great presents from my family.... Firstly, from my parents, i got a PEN! (includes black ink, red ink and pencil...) Just nice for uni. But i bu4 she3 de2 yong4.. haha..

Then from my bro...i got a..... book?
Nah.... its a BOOKMARK~! Dang.. i bet it's super costly.. Told him no need ex stuff le, but he still likes buying such things... thanks bro~! ^^And! from my other relatives. UNCLE MIKE AND AUNT EM got me an adidas tee.. Ha! they know i like black~! ^^ UNCLE HUBERT AND AUNT CHRIS got me a bilabong tee... Black as well... =P My relatives sure know wad i wear.. haha.. UNCLE JEFF AND AUNT ALICIA got me PUMA shower gel and body lotion.. Nice fragrance!! Woots~! Ha.. Nvr wanted to splurge on such stuff, cos its a want, not a need. But to receive them.. it's sure cool.. haha... i finally get to use such stuff.. UNCLE ISAAC AND AUNT THERESA got me food... Argh.. i'm fat already. They are surely tempting me with such tasty snack... :X UNCLE LOUIE AND AUNT JUDY got me a wrist rest... i can use it in hostel! haha.. And yep, that's all for now... Oh! and hwee ling sent me a christmas card~! Thanks!! (if u do still read my blog, tag k? =P)

Anyway, thanks to all who wished me in one way or the other... I'm SO SORRY i wasn't in the mood to mass sms all of u like i usually do... thus... to my shooting buddies, aquos, yw, sy, indy, 06s17, jrock members, etc... MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR~!

The next post shall either be rants bout my dad's reaction to my results when i tell him... or 2008 reviews and 2009 resolutions... (if i have to mood to blog, that is.)

Oh~! lastly... i'm finally playing some christmas songs with band b in comm hall (raffles hall). Bet no one will turn up since its a sunday, but prac together has been fun! Yay~! And i sooooo wanna learn bass still... =P i'll have to wait till end of 2nd sem... to determine... hmm....

Ooops... lastly lastly.. Choir caroling has been uber fun! I got to know so many more fun pple... and learn more nice christmas songs... Rawk on carolers~! ^^i'll probably join again next year...

~MeHhz~

mood: thoughtful

[The Moon in RH at 4am... ^^]

I'm not depressed at all. I wonder why. Is it because i knew it from the beginning? Or is it just because i totally have no more interest in it to care how i fare? Ha! How much i've changed over these pass years... From a sucker of results to a heckcare girl. But i guess this is the final straw. I need to fall b4 i can pick myself up. Sec 1 was like that too.. But J1 wasn't. So...... can i do it next sem? I wonder. I have much commitments nxt sem - rhazz, rockfest, etc... I think i will really stop my guitar. Though i know i will miss learning it. But i need to stop diverting my attention. This 3 months were treated like play time. But that's enuf. I need to concentrate. On piano too, i need to master those jazz chords asap. Lastly, maybe i should forget about doing that. Though i've been wanting to do it since.... pri 4 i think, and i was again strongly reminded of it in sec2. Till now... But, looking at myself, i doubt i can do it. Lets just say... if i fail to discipline myself by end of sem2 and can't handle my time well, I will give up that thought, and regret it for the rest of my life. So, as not to regret, i must really work hard for sem 2. It's a brand new year soon... 2009.. I shall post my resolutions then, though i already have in mind wad to promise myself. It's christmas eve now... time passes soooo fast. Merry Christmas to all~! ^^

~MeHhz~

PROJECT BREAKOUT~!

Yes~!! I could go~!! Finally, i could meet up with sgclub jrock pple like sunny,ruka, ika, shiro, face, etc... The bands were real good too! With Sugianto from season 1 jue dui superstar as the emcee! Haha... He was really funneh~!

First up... 'yi xuan feng~!' Lotsa head banging.. but i can't figure out wad he's growling... Good growling though~! ^^

Then it was Quis... Very good vocals.. Clear and in tune.. apparently he was top 20 in campus superstar too... But good cover on most songs.. driver's high by l'arc~en~ciel was good. the world by naitomea was great too... Lurved his vocals..

Then was JM-Kai... Wasn't really impressed by his vocals... But maybe it's cos i dunno the songs they do.... i THINK it was them who did Glamorous Sky by mika nakashima... Not bad... But kinda average to me....

Lemon~! Nice vocals..tight band... All of them are working adults... good guitar riffs... Just that they are more pop than rock... aww... but no matter.. The vox was real good... Sang a song by DAI, deep forest...She has THE POWER.. haha...

Then~! Was a solo performer... Jerrod Yeo.. Haha. But he's not related to me... Performed about 3 songs J-pop. Vocals are not bad... Can speak jap, the way he acted was just like one of Johnny's kawaii boy bands... overall... NICE~! Haha... I lurved the jap rendition of last christmas~! XDNext up was.... Hidama... Great band... won first in a japanese rock competition in thailand in 2007. Technique-wise... all was great... Professional performance. The singer had a good voice... They aren't the usual japanese rock band.. They tend more towards jazz rock.. Which is great as well.. Just like tokyo jihen. U can REALLY tell how VERY skilled each musician is. Esp the keyboards.. It just WOAh~!

Lastly~! Ethe'real~!!!! The top 4 band in the recent season of super band. Haha.. watching them life is real great.... Kunio TOTALLY has the ability to liven up the show... with him stand on the stomper, towering over everyone... It just cool to watch a live rock concert...

Unfortuantely, singaporeans, being singaporeans, are sooooo not enthu... We dun jump with the music, we dun really cramp infront of the stage and go crazy as the bands rock away. We just sit and stare at them. Haha... i pity the performers. Still, this live was rockin'~! XD

Argh... i really wanna learn bass... listening to the pro basslines... I just LURVE the sound!! haha.. But i dun think i'll ever learn it... Unless i'm disciplined enuf to prac hard. haha.. k time to sleep...

~MeHhz~

LONG POST....

Finally decided to blog.. At a weird time. 4.12AM!! And i gotta wake up at 8.30am 'today' to prac piano for my band prac at 10am... =.='' Time to start updating according to my previous post.

1) INDY ORCHARD OUTING! fun fun fun. Let the pictures do the talking.

2) RANTS ABOUT GOING HOME EARLY. I'm getting sick of being restrained. I just realised, never once have i gone out in peace. While everyone is enjoying themselves to the fullest, i'm always looking at my watch, worrying about when i should go home. i hate missing all the fun, but i ALWAYS miss out the fun. In the middle of an outing, i have to leave. It's always like that. Not once can i enjoy myself till the end, and go home with my friends together. It sucks.. Only with aquos, then i'm allowed out late at times. Sigh.. And now WAD? i came home BEFORE 10pm mind you... And i was lectured. Hah~! weird right? And what was i told? "Next time u go out, be HOME before 8pm. If u cannot, then dun go out." I mean WTH~!!!! Pple eat dinner at 7.30, i gotta be home by 8pm. U might as well tell me, I DO NOT WANT U OUT FOR DINNER, etc.... I feel like a stupid puppet. I guess, i'm just tooo guai to rebel. But normal parents aren't that strict right?!?!?! It's so unfair~! but then again, life is never fair. And now i'm gonna miss pbo2... T.T Dang~!!!!i was REALLLY looking forward to it.... *Cries....*

3) PHILANA'S WEDDING~! Well, it was my cousin's wedding.. and for once, i really decided to dress up as a girl of my age.. Haha... again, i'm lazy to type..so pictures~! First up will dressing for the church ceremony on day 1... Then next will be for the dinner at shangri la on day 2... ^^

I know le... Next time i should straighten my hair.. Curls nvr work for me... Day 2 i look so.... ergh... >.<

Haha... And i finally got to wear my jap leggings... XD Though this is not the first time i wear these shoes... It's the first time my relatives see me wear.. haha.. i became TALL on that day... =P Ooopx.... i realised this post sooooo zi4 lian4. But once only lah.. seldom see myself dressing up. Let me zi lian for once.. haha...

4) MEETING LILY JIE JIE AND BRO FOR LUNCH.. Woah... this is the first time i met lily jie jie after such a long time.. haha.. cabbed down to prego(german restaurant @ raffles city i think). Met her and my bro... at lunch and chit chat.. it was nice catching up! too bad i dun take pics.. But my bro's blog has FOOD pics... ask me if u wanna see...

5) CHOIR CAROLING~! Yay~! i really missed singing in a choir, and it's super fun singing together with them... The seniors there are all sooooo pro also~! haha... i DONT regret joining choir for this hols... ^^

6) LIFE..... just realised it's almost the same thing i wanna say for rants about going home early... so i shan't repeat myself. So.... JACQ's bday pics~! check them out in aquos blog.. =P lazy to post again~! HWEE SHAN's birthday pics... in facebook, under jiayong's profile.. haha.. lazy to blog too... anyway, we went KTV @ chinatown from 2-7!! then had dinner... Indy pple are always fun... And shoot each other with scandals... Lolx... Laughing non-stop! Aha~! That's why i lurve them so! Anyway... HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWEE SHAN~!!

~MeHhz~

List of events to blog.

Very sian these few days. Haven't been in the mood to blog recently.
So here's a list to remind myself wad i have to blog on.
1) Outing with indy @ orchard
2) Rants about going home early. =P
3) Philana's (my cousin) wedding
4) Meetin lily jie jie and bro
5) Choir caroling
6) Life.

Holidays.....

Sometimes i wonder why am i giving myself so much stress by going for my hall choir carolling for that 2 puny aux points which i might not even get. Choir carolling, a chance missed in my sec school days cos i had to go malaysia withmy family. Now, my hols are practically wasted due to choir. My whole december burned. Not that i mind this, i have nothing else to do any way. But because of choir, if i wanna go out with my friends on my free days, i have to see that black face of my mum. Because i'm mostly out this dec, my mum's unhappy. She seems okay at times, but bad mood on other days. If i'm a bad daughter or wad, i might just heckcare, anyway, i'm old enuf to lead my own life fruitfully. But i'm not one to just ignore my mum's feelings. I really feel guilty. But i feel i've not done anything wrong anyway wad~!?!?! Argh!!! Furthermore, i really soooo wanna meet all my friends, my jc mates, my shooting mates, my sec skool dears, aquos, eveline, etc... I really wanna call them up for a game of badminton, or go rollerblading, or shopping, etc... But i know i'll face an even 'black-er' face from my mum. Should i have joined the choir carolling!??! Sigh.... I'm missing all the friends outings not exactly because of choir, but cos i dun wanna see my mum having that black 'sian' face, but this is also indirectly caused by choir. Why did i even apply for choir carolling in the first place?!?! But i already know my ans. I LURVE the blending of voices, i miss choir singing and i love christmas songs.
BUT was it really worth it to get myself so stressed up with time arranging with my friends, pleading my mum to let my out, feeling guilty at the same time?
I wonder....

Anyway, sorry this post is kinda emo, cos i'm stressing myself over such insignificant stuff now. This hols is not that 'sian', just that i haven't updated on the enjoyable stuff.. I'm just wanna relieve myself by typing this chunk of stuff out first... :X
~MeHhz~

Happy Birthday JACQ~!!!

Hey gal~! Happy birthday to u~! Though i know it's over le.. But still, haha... i Finally bothered to blog awhile... XD So Otanjoubi omedotou ne~! Xin-san to isshoni, eieni together desu~! ^^

Hmm.. kk...i actually have ALOT i wanna blog on, emo posts, happy posts, updates, etc... But it's late now, i gotta wake up early tmr, so i shall blog them another time.
~MeHhz~

Facing the Music

Sheri has been a bad girl. She has been lying so much. It's time she faced the music. It's time she changed. Change back into the innocent and studious Sheri. The guilt is there. And will always remain. But she has to live with it and work hard for sem 2. 'work harder' for sem 2 would be wrong, cos she never worked hard to begin with. It's time i get my desserts.
-guiltysheri-