grow up

I guess everything i'm feeling now is part and parcel of life...
23 this year.... still young when judged by working adults, but old when i think of how far i've come from being that kiddy little girl in primary school.
i'm just feeling kinda ranty these few days.. hence my posts on my blog... but sooner or later, i'll probably close off the blog soon..... or maybe revamp it. probably after i've found a job and am about to step into that next chapter of my life. tumblr is still more fun. haha.
i'm missing NUS life alot. somehow. I probably have minor regrets on not getting better grades, but i'm missing the fruit juice store, then lectures and lunches with engine friends, the muggings with indy, the pretty environment. Just realised i've yet to type an official post on my NUS life, the 4 years there.. but i'll probably do that later, after i've found a job.
i'm still sort of in a 'holiday mood' cos i'm jobless and it still feels like semester break. but august is coming... and i'm still jobless.. getting kind of desperate. haha. sometimes i feel so stupid when i reflect on all my actions... but it's all done and over.
Just hoping for a change in my aimless life these days...... meanwhile, clean up bits and pieces of my life, improve on what i need to, and relax.
~MeHhz~