Cheena post! XD

好羡慕。。。 好羡慕能够去国留学的朋友。
但我知道，自己没本事。
谁叫我那么懒，又如此好玩。
最羡慕的就是有本事到日本与韩国留学的人。
尤其是到日本，试着用日语学习，考试，等等。
真的后悔当初没把日语念好，继续读下去。
现在只能在NUS加油，把CAP拉上去。
加油！！ 不要放弃。。。
别在偷懒！！！
话虽如此，但我依然那么懒惰。。。
唉。。。
~MeHhz~

arggh...

freakin rude and self obsessed.
pissed.
~MeHhz~

uwaa~

sat slack...
sun slack....
argh.. supposed to to hard working!!!!
tmr must mug already~
Ganbatte!
~MeHhz~
我想。。。我也该是时候忘掉了。
没用的时候，的确没话题。
但却感到遗憾。。。好想念当时。。。

^^

Thanks AQUOS for the lovely dinner~
GREAT place to dine in.
Food for thought!
Love the concept, the architecture, the food~!
Lets go there again some time~ =)
and THANKS jean and brandy for the treat~!
haha... FINALLY got to eat sumo house...
like after 2years+ in NUS.
arigato minna san~!
~MeHhz~

=)

though it was 6 days ago...
I STILL received presents!
*sheri is a happy girl*
thanks JEAN for the cute YOG SHOOTING pin!!!
was still wondering a few days ago if i should go search for some YOG soveniers to buy for remembrance... and TADA~!!
i got a LYO SHOOTING pin! ARIGATO~ =)
and thanks to yw, xf and meng meng!
for that cute personalised necklace with my name!!
first hint of 'key' for my 21st bday! haha...
*hugs* to my friends.
I feel blessed, to have friends who celebrate my birthday with me,
and friends who still bother to give me presents though my bday is over,
and friends who treat me so well! =)
I'm happily listening to EXILE songs jacq sent me now, while i'm doing readings...
Plus, i'm meeting aquos tmr, after 3 months...!
AM HAPPY TODAY~
~MeHhz~

natsu matsuri

finally, got to go natsu matsuri to look see look see...
wore a yukata tgt with jean... haha...
oh the 'horror' of stuffing cloth everywhere~
anyway, spent $$ on food...
a nice experience overall... =)
AND I FINALLY GOT TO TASTE ASAHI BEER~!
oh wells, still not exactly a beer person.
baileys taste nicer... =P
but still, asahi is MUCH better than tiger. XD
used to really hate beer, but after drinking sake during japan trip, i think my dislike towards alcohol sort of ceased... haha... not that i LIKE beer, but i don't mind drinking it now and then already... and i know my tolerance for alcohol is still okay, i won't be tipsy easily,
so i dare to consume....
Drank baileys yesterday, a full cup of asahi today...
at least my parents had no idea.. haha..
thankfully there's not beer 'smell' today...
Relaxed for 3 consecutive days.
thurs - yw, sy, rm, cathy => love them all
friday - indy => *hugs*
sat - natsu matsuri with jean...
evex... T.T get well so that i can see u in school soon!
SO.... tmr, gotta start mugging once again....
~MeHhz~

Thankful...

TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS.
THANK YOU~!!
for accompanying me/msg-ing me/wishing me...
meant a lot to me.
THANKS~! Love u all~!
thanks to yw for meeting up with me, plus the gift and cake~!
thanks to da jie who tried to entertain us though she was working.
thanks to my family for buying my bday cake + present.
thanks to my dad for being in normal/good mood these days. XD
thanks to RUMIN AND CATHY for dropping by my house!
really gave me a pleasant surprise~! XD
thanks for all the msges and wishes u all facebooked/smsed.
thanks to jean and brandy for offering to go cash studio/ sumo house.
thanks to my relatives who wished me.
thanks to INDY for finding time for me on a friday night,
all the way till 1+am...
thanks to aquos for trying to arrange a meeting even tho everyone's sooo busy.
thanks for the presents~!!
~MeHhz~

19 AUGUST 2010

21 years old~!
i don't feel much diff tho.
Overslept today.. =P
was supposed to meet yw at 9am, but i woke up at 9.20.
Oops. so sorry~! Haha...
ended up meeting her at 9.50am.
Ate KFC WAFFLES! breakfast~ whee!
then decided to pay a surprise visit to my dear dajie, shiying.
Popped by to wish her happy 22nd birthday~!
Yup, same day as me.... =)
YW bought cakes for us, but so sorry, couldn't eat it due to time constraints..
Thanks ALOT though~!
Bought a tee @ da jie's shop, then went to school for lecture.
2151 was okay... 3112 was lame.. haha...
25mins of lecture? plus 5 mins on earthquakes and tsunami...
then end le..
collected natsu matsuri tix and NUSSU diary with jean..
then made my way home.
cut cake @ home tonight with family... =)
Shall blog my thanks for prezzies and well wishes another day.
indy meeting tmr. <3
~MeHhz~

woah....

this is the first time....
i HAPPILY entered my toilet to wash it.
Haha... the best way to escape from my lecturing dad,
and stop controlling my tears.
i got 1 hour to cool down b4 i step out of the toilet,
washed and bathed.
no need to hold it in till night time.....
3 times.... i got lectured 3 times today.
First: cos i ate the delicious fish porridge my mum cooked,
and refused to taint it with additional side 'flavourings' like
XO sauce or 'fuyu'....
Just because he likes eating those, i became an idiot who doesn't know how to enjoy food, refusing everything nice, not knowing how to appreciate food, stupid of me.
yah... and mind u... i DO eat those things when i have rice. i just don't wanna spoil the porridge taste. just great right? kenna lectured for not wanting to eat things.
Second: he insisted on fetching me to school. thanks ah. i always tried to avoid it, cos i know i'll get lectured in the car. true enough.... He wasn't describing things clearly, and i daren't ask cos i was afriad he'll scold, but in the end, when he end up with a question, i had to admit i couldn't exactly catch what he was saying, so had to clarify with him... another bout of lecture...
Third: dinner time... he asked what time i'm going for lesson tmr. Well, i told him i'm meeting my friend for breakfast at 9, then lesson starts at 1, so i'll be making my way there myself, i got another bout of lecture.... ''Don't u think u're wasting time? esp when u can study?" i replied, "i'll be reading my lecture notes the 2 hours on train..." and he started his lecturing about me not studying hard, etc.... WHAT'S HIS PROBLEM?! i'm meeting my friend on my bday, and he lectures me for wasting time, not studying? say i waste time on internet etc... MY FRIENDS can be my judge. I've really studied harder this sem. read lecture notes b4 lecture... make notes after lecture... i EVEN make notes for readings instead of simply highlighting. and i get this SHIT from him.
Even saturday in malacca.. whole afternoon after lunch, from 2-7 i was hiding in the room mugging while my mum and him took turns napping due to lack of sleep. I DID NOT SLEEP OK. i was MUGGING. i finshed writing 2 chapters of 2151 notes, read 3112 lecture 4 and 5, read 3162 textbook, finished writing 3122's notes... DAMN PRODUCTIVE.
I ended up reading CHINESE storybook on sunday afternoon.... and he says:" waste time read this kinda of storybook, got time dunno how to study ah?" my reply:" i studied the whole afternoon yesterday mah... today rest lor.." He disagreed. he didn't believe i mugged. like HELLO!!! u were snoring away.... thankfully my mum came to say that i DID study. else i'll get scolding again.
I'm pissed... i've so much more stuff to rant about, but i shall not, else my eyes will get red again. i can only say.... my parents taught me well.... so much that they have absolute power over me.
"No going out", and i'll guai guai stay at home.... i daren't lie to them.
i get scolded, i daren't answer back, even if i'm not in the wrong.
Sometimes i get so pissed, i end up answering back, and i get more scolding.
for being rude.
sometimes i can't control myself and end arguing with my mum.
I'll suffer from guilt after everything is over, questioning myself if i'm a failure as a daughter.
I can't hate my parents, cos i know they are like this for my own good.
But i'm really getting sick of it.
And i learnt, finally, after so many years....
RESULTS are EVERYTHING to my freedom.
i used to do well when i was young, so i'm allow to watch ALITTLE BIT of tv.
Once my results drop, i'm totally cut off from tv.
Now, i do badly for exams = no tv, no going out, no this, no that.
in short, NO RIGHTS.
after getting lectured just now, i was tempted, to cancel any meetings i have with my friends. don't meet yw for breakfast, don't meet indy on friday, don't go for natsu matsuri, don't meet aquos. just to show my dad that I WILL study, and make my parents feel guilty imprisoning me on my bday. but on second thought, i doubt my dad feels anything anyway. to him, it's only right for me to stay home and mug and not have fun. i deserve it.
So anyway, after getting lectured by him already, why should i make myself suffer?
Just go ahead and meet friends and have fun! =)
I'm gonna enjoy myself tmr.
Thank god for wonderful friends. Out of school, i've got yw, aquos and TPSC. in school, i have great lecture buddies, lunch buddies, plus hall mates. i love them.
Oh i met bin jie today. miss chatting with bin jie, though i wasn't exactly very close. But he and ss are the CUTEST couple i've ever known! XD
~MeHhz~

malacca...

Off to malacca tonight....
Sigh...
It's not that i don't wanna see my grandma...
But i've been travelling to malacca so often these days.
and i have so much other stuff to do...
Was planning to use my sat/sun to do proj research.
I'm a total noob at robotics, i need to read up.
Was planning to meet aquos on sat,
after 3months plus of not meeting them...
Was planning to study in advance,
so i have more free time next week to meet friends.
Seems like next week is gonna be a hectic week as well.
And i thought i could slack a little next week.
Seems like I might not be able to meet up with any friends. =(
even if we did make any plans... so sorry...
Back to malaysia...
hot as hell.... no proper place to study...
insects all around...
uncles comparing results....
FYI, 2 cousins passed out of uni with 1st class honours,
another 2 doing well in uni...
this implies that,
i'm gonna get snide remarks from my dad all over again.
I'm in PMS mood.
For all i know, i might just end up snapping at my dad
and getting hell from him for being rude.
Or i might just break down infront of everyone.
gotta struggle to keep my emotions in control again.
long car journey back too...
damn uncomfortable since 大姨妈 came visiting.
ALL IN ALL, why can't i stay in singapore.
Miss ya'll aquos! sorry i can't meet up AGAIN. >.<
~MeHhz~

your reign.

why.
must.
i.
be.
FORCED.
to.
go.
when.
i.
DON'T WANT.
to.
go.
malaysia.
and i have a valid reason not to go.
~MeHhz~

*pulls hair*

I really hate myself for being the 'anything' person.
i realise i'm usually 'anything' cos i don't wanna end up offending pple.
but when it comes to stuff like that...
it sucks to make a decision.
especially when u know making that decision = war in the group.
that's why i hate doing proj with pple i don't know...
cos pple i don't know = diff interest...
means conflicts.
SUCKS BIG TIME.
Why does this sem have to start this way....
did i make the right choice? by choosing interest? :X

hmm.... AWC open house tmr.
should i go? join shooting?
~MeHhz~

school day 1

HR2002 3hrs sectional teaching.
ME2151 2hrs lecture.
ME3112 2hrs lecture.
I'm already lost in 3112...
*pulls hair*
and there's the ME proj to worry about.
oh noes....
~MeHhz~
ps: did i come across as irritating? i'm sorry if i was. :X

national day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE~!!
kinda miss sec/jc days,
where we'll all get to sing national day songs together...
*thinks back....*
haha... we're all so old now... >.<
oh wells... school reopens tmr.
MORNING. 9am. =.=''
i don't wanna wake up...
oh man....
~MeHhz~
edit: sigh.. kenna lectured again. what time u coming home tmr? ans: i end at 6pm, might stay to eat dinner with my friend... so come back after that.
okay answer right? i got lectured... =.=''
u better don't waste time outside ah... ur result like shit, still wanna waste time out side. don't think u stay hall anymore, by the time u come home it's 9+ 10... no time to study, etc.. ur result is shit already. better buck up ah.
oh well.. seems like i'm really back in prison after all.
2 years of freedom. sigh.. i'm missing it...
so very much. and school hasn't even start.
=(

paintball

FINALLY.
got a chance to play paintball...
all thanks to Bharathi's info and MANY thanks to JEAN,
for organising everything.
So, 6 of us, Jean, her sis, Brandy, Bharathi, Victor, plus me.
Pity Eveline couldn't join us cos she was sick,
thus replaced by Jean's sis.
I'm sure evex would have enjoyed it ALOT (minus the pain).
get well soon!!!
then we can go again next time(though will be more ex)!!
Basically, it's the hide behind stuff and shoot at opponent,
then shoot a cone and grab some stuff and run back to base,
just to complete the mission.
fun fun fun. but SUPER shag. dunno why.
Though it made me miss TPSC TERRIBLY.
i wonder how it'll be if TPSC goes to play together.
at least today, we hid, ran, shot, completed mission.
If i'm there with TPSC, would we, esp the rifle pple,
just hide behind the obstacles and take aim?
HAHA.. it'll be quite comical, since we're all the 'aiming' pple.
So it's kinda like second nature to just hide behind something,
and be some sort of sniper. =P
aiming for parts of the opponents that stick out from their cover,
or holes which opponents shoot from.
At least that was what i did today...
ended up shooting jean twice on the head (I AM SO SORRY)
shooting victor on his collar bone (AM DEEPLY APOLOGETIC).
Was too shag by the last round to run around to complete the mission.
left it to the 2 B's to do it.
i was just hiding and sniping away. =P
imagine if TPSC does the same as me, we'll end up.....
1) hide
2) snipe away~
3) hit (yay~!)
4) revive
5) repeat steps 1-4.
we'll never complete missions. HAHA.
Anyway, all in all, i'm loving it.
paintball... could be painball too....
and also 'paint'ball,
where ur body get painted with blue-blacks.
OUCH, but i'm not regretting.
Thanks for today! =)
~MeHhz~

AAA

ah... my dad's gonna be back tmr.
no more slacking.
at all...
gotta try and be guai...
less comp usage.
SHERI CANNOT RESIST HER LAPPY!
i wish!
Kinda addicted to AAA (all around attack) 's songs.
or rather, 2 songs. titled: music and climax jump.
been quite awhile since i last heard happy hyper songs like these.
=)but probably gonna remove the 2 songs,
from my blog song list soon.
kinda dislike noisy blog songs usually. haha.
i get irritated after awhile. LOL.
5 more days to school reopen.
2more days to paintball!!
yay~!
~MeHhz~

pang

everytime i read her blog.
i feel a pang of sadness.
complications of relationships.
it's really saddening...
just pray that both of them can find solace.
i never expected that break.
esp when both are suffering.
take care.
~MeHhz~

meetings...

Geraldine's bday party today...
was really great meeting these close friends.
once again. =)
Cathy, rumin, joel, yian, and of cus, geraldine.
chatted non-stop with them...
i miss jc times with them...
kk.. maybe i'm not exactly very close with my class,
but still, these few are the ones i could really click and chat with.
of cos, kaiwen, jiehui, and jieling too.
but sort of lost contact with them. =(
was fun at geraldine's house.
really thankful for the chance to meet with the rest.
wasn't invited for jie hui's bday, so obviously i wont go. :X
same for huimei's...
but i guess even if i was, my parents won't let me out.
esp since i got back from geraldine's place at 1am.
unique part of this party, was the performance.
keyboards by a friend, vocals by another.
and dance by geraldine.
made me think twice about myself.
i TOTALLY lack the confidence, even though i've the ability.
was asked by rumin and cathy to play around on the keyboard.
my reply: cannot lah.. very long nvr touch le.
my mind: yeah right, sheri, u just touched the piano this morning.
i just had lesson this morning.
i could have just played something random.
true, i LACK the ability to play a proper song.
Like i've learnt SOOOOO long, but have yet to memorise a proper FULL song.
Snippets of melody + chords is no prob.
but a full proper song.... i'm ashamed. :X
then again, i saw that guy playing simple songs like 'if we hold on' and some other random songs for fun. and thought to myself, i could do that. But i didn't. cos i daren't.
where has my confidence gone to?
did uni remove that as well....
nonono sheri. wakeup.
~MeHhz~
ps: watched hotaru no hikari season2. laughed my ass out. comparable to nodame. 2 thumbs up. am waiting for eipsode 4.

pondering....

anyway, first up, went to watch nodame with evex.
NO REGRETS.
as usual, nodame can really crack me up.
first time i really laughed out loud in a cinema,
with the whole cinema laughing at the same time.
the music was great too. argh...
why wasn't nodame out when i was learning classical piano.
i could have motivated me. haha..
second up....
relationships.
been surrounded by friends having relationship problems,
ever since i entered uni...
i guess uni IS a place where friendship/love develops.
seriously speaking, i miss the innocent days of indy.
where everyone could just sit down and chat,
about everything under the sun.
esp the time where we sit down for supper,
pairing up couples, just for the fun of it.
no taboo topics, no hidden feelings, just pure fun.
i guess feelings are bound to develop, relationships strengthened,
all in all, our group has changed.
but still, i believe the friendship forged, will never change.
been watching many dramas recently...
and almost all have a 'romance' part to it...
sometimes i wonder....
what exactly is love.
is there really love at first sight?
or is it more of a 感情是培养出来的 type of relation.
i guess it's really 50-50... depending on the person involved.
it's rather interesting to see...
whether determination beats the 'love at first sight' scenario.
or not.
well.. it can be kinda sad when love at first sight prevails,
esp since the the other party gave his/her all...
ha.... thirdly, school's gonna reopen.
i get this strange feeling when i think about it.
it's not a new year, it's the MIDDLE of a year,
and yet i get a chance to start all over once again.
i know this semester's gonna very different from previous ones.
no more RH, no more indy suppers, no more choir,
no more floorball, no more own room, no more freedom.
But think again, without my parents barking at me,
did i ever gain anything?
left alone.... i'll end up being a useless person.
What i've gained till now, was cos my parents gave me the chance to.
music, piano, courses, studies, whatever i wanted, i was allowed to learn.
whatever i didn't want, i was forced to learn, only to find it beneficial.
how can i complain, when i've been provided all my life?
i guess all i can do is to try harder in uni.
though sometimes, i wonder, would it be better if i did badly when i was young.
then my parents expectations of me wouldn't be so high.
i wouldn't feel like a bad/lousy daughter if i fail in life.
i'm so much more of a hands-on kinda person.
study was always a chore.
i actually envy pple who have a profession, like haircutting,
make-up, carpenters, furniture deisgners, cooks, chef, etc...
with my character, i think i'll do pretty well in service industries.
since i have no problem keeping my temper in check,
and i like seeing pple happy. =)
but no.. uni doesn't really have such stuff, it's all studies.
when i was young, i used to think, ITE students are gonna suffer,
since they are not smart enough to go poly or JC.
but now, i actually evny them,
cos what they learn is hands-on stuff.
sure, they might get poor paying jobs,
but if u find joy in such jobs, then there's nothing wrong.
k.. i think i'm not really making sense already...
there's so much more in my mind, but i can't exactly rmb what i wanna type.
i guess i'm being really naive in certain ways...
but well... i'll learn as i grow up.
1 more week to school reopening...
wakeup sheri.
~MeHhz~

outings....

Met up with hweesh after UBER long time...
whee~ ate at 313.. then visited JJ's shop.
SMG~ loving the concept, but too ex to buy.
then went to orchard central (finally),
and got to take the long long escalotors...
was nice catching up with her... =)
next day, met yw and xf for inception.
damn nice movie.... whee~
oh.. and chatted quite abit with yw,
at sushi tei~ i just hope both of them:
yw and sy are fine... :X
relationships can really be arghh.. :X
take care k? :X
sat, met up with indy for 'last meal',
b4 anna and awl left for korea....
OMG, i really really really miss k-ing with them.
it's just to relaxing and shuang being with them.
be it singing emo songs, or hyper songs,
u can just sit and sing together.
dinner was at TCC @ citylink. 1 for 1~ nice deal.
but as usual, i gotta leave early.... curfew....
i realised, i never had a chance to stay with indy,
all the way thru outings that are in town,
since i always gotta be home... =(
i'll really be missing RH life once school reopens.
dreamt of indy in RH again....
we were plying some games.... can't exactly rmb.
sigh... i gotta get my life in order soon,
once school reopens.
no more aimlessly living day after day....
nodame movie tmr with eve!
~MeHhz~