aih......

i seriously dunno what i'm doing anymore.
school has started, i haven't started mugging.
I'm usually at least prepared, listing down lab days and stuff.
But i've done naught.
I'm feeling so pissed with myself, cos i'm afraid i've to take Engineering Professionalism all alone during tutorials. The classes are all maxed out at 12students per class. I highly doubt that they will allow me to squeeze in, probably will offer me other timeslots. =( To make matters worse, i had to skip the first lecture and i have NO IDEA what the workload is like for this module. Lecture notes seem to only need pure memory work.
I guess i should learn to be a loner more. Yup, i'm afraid of being alone, as usual. But i'm slowly learning. Slowly accepting to be independant. In year 1, i was alone for CTW. Ended up flunking it. I guess i'm just rather useless when it comes to mixing around with others. Somehow, for PC1144, i'm not so afraid. But for eng prof kinda module, i don't wanna be alone. =(
Argh. enough of crap. I dunno why i'm feeling so shitty and pissed. no reason to. I'm just being grumpy and i dunno.... frustrated. :X
I'm getting insufficient sleep, work slowly piling up, slowly feeling more and more stressed. feeling insecure once again. What's my problem sia....
SHERI WAKE UP! FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm tired. very. very. and there's still spring cleaning to do, proj to research, lecture notes to read..... i'm gonna sleep. hopefully i'll be more focused tmr.
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i feel like throwing things around my room for some reason. What's wrong with me.
~MeHhz~