*escapes

I just wanna lose myself in the world of fanfiction, or an AU, where there's no stress/expectations/work or what not.
I'm really good at escaping reality, but i know it doesn't last. Once the story is finished, i'm back to reality where deadlines approach at an even faster pace. And i'm growing older too. And where you can't be judged by solely 'you' but rather through comparisons with others.
Am i making sense? I dunno...
I'm just feeling a unfocused right now.
~MeHhz~