3rd consecutive post....

Haha.. been blogging for the past3 days...
A sign of reluctance to study...
I've lost the motivation... NOOOOoooo~
Anyway, too many things on these days.
COMPLETELY SHAG. No mood to mug.
just a post to remind myself to stuff to do.
Friday:
-lab report (at least half)
-choir poster
-wash toilet =.=''
Sat:
-go library check on J-topics
-complete lab report
-ME2142 webcast
Sun:
-floorball + choir, i'll be shag...
Mon:
-ME2114 tut
-ME2135 lecture notes.
-gem tut
Tues:
-SS readings
-ME2114 lecture notes
Wed:
-AMPLITUDE. gonna miss all my lesson. SHIT.
-gem readings
I think i'll pause here...
It seems endless...
I'm tired.... Looking at the amout of work i've left waiting for me to touch... I wanna die liao... I NEED the CNY break to mug. :X will i have the discipline?
~MeHhz~

hideyoshi is an asshole....

Looking forward to tmr~ end of my week of school torture. After lab from 2-5, i'll chiong to complete it by that very day. Then i'll pon friday's 1hr lecture to go home and rest, plus wash toilet. =.=''
Sat morn back to school to support guys floorball, sunday morn also guys floorball, then afternoon girls practice and night, choir practice... Time in between = mug. I hope. I need to at least... :X
Monday, after 12-2, it's back home to give Terence the very last tuition session i'll have with him... I'm quitting. Too tired to continue tuition. Thank goodness i found CAKE to take over for me. THANKS YW FOR HELPING ME FIND CAKE!! XD and after monday... the vicious cycle of full days continue..... damn shag lah... 9-5/6 lessons every week for 3 consecutive days.
3 projects to do.
INTRO TO JAP STUDIES. yes, i'm loving the module. Readings are NICE OKAY! i read the readings without feeling bored or sleepy. so interesting can... But tutorial grps are boring.... my project mates are low profile pple... *cries* i'm hoping to do well in this mod... But i doubt so now... Ahhhhh~
JAPAN AND SINGAPORE. suuuuppppperrrrr boring module. Readings suck. I'm falling asleep reading them. lectures are damn boring also... But tutorials are FUN! surprisingly.... XD pple there talk alot, crap alot... and my project grp mates... brandy (ARGH!! jean couldn't get the same tutorial T.T ) and another guy plus 2 other girls... They seem fun at least. :X talk more than introtojapstudies groupmates. =.=''
I guess there's plus and minus points to both mods... =)
ME2101 due on march 1st. doing it with brandy and jenny... i hope i wont be lightbulb. Get the feeling that i shouldn't join them cos it'll be more convenient for them to meet up in PGP at night to discuss... plus i'll be a lightbulb. :X But i've no other pple to join... FORGIVE ME... so sorry... i'll be thick skinned and join the 2 of u... :X

RAWR~ sleeping at 3am++ AGAIN today. Tmr gotta wake up early to go print stuff... ARGH!! Been having weird dreams lately... the kind that makes u switch off ur alarm clock without knowing, and can continue storyline when u return to sleep... sucks.. it means i'm not having proper rest PLUS i end up late for lecturers... :X
I can't afford to be late for tmr's lecture.. cos i'm taking the mod alone.... i need all the info i can get... RAWR. hope i can wake up on time... and last thru the whole day....
Btw..... hideyoshi is some idiot who held power in japan for a period and start the crucification of christians, that lead to thousands of executed christians in japan by other rulers that took over. I'm sooo irritated by the fact that his name consist of 'hide' (the guitarist/stylist i look up to) and 'yoshi' (reminds me of yoshiki / toshi from xjapan).. haha.. yikes!
~MeHhz~

tsukareta

i lost motivation.
Just the tot of having to do hw makes me sian once again.
I'm sleeping late nights AGAIN.
and not getting anything done properly.
i'm being paranoid at times too.
sheesh.
*self slaps*
lotsa things to catch up on.
DIE. lab starts this too....
I'm tired already...
It's only the 3rd week of school.
I'm really tired.
another long day tmr. 10-6, followed by piano till 9pm.
by the time i'm back in hall, it's gonna be 10pm+....
gotta do MOAR readings. SIAN.... :X
then thurs lab... Oh noes...
I'm gonna NOT be able to catch up with my studies soon.
Sigh... and i've been guai so far, no drama, no manga (cept for 20mins when there's updates).
i'm tired....
~MeHhz~

rawrrawr~

'suffering with a man u cannot love? don't worry now, we have 3 single rooms available. the women don't get it.' WTH~ i love siew teng's emails!! haha... they brighten me up. XD

Been a busy week, too much socialising, slacking, and not mugging.
I'm super back dated on my muggings... and the coming week is gonna be busy as hell too. Shyte. just to update myself.
-monday go home 4 tuition, and see my dad off.
-tues choir at night
-wed piano at night
-thurs shit, lab starts. plus choir at night (i think)
-fri finally a day for myself? :X
i still gotta wash toilet one of these days... die~
Hopefully i can drag this duty till next week.

Been losing contact with all my dears who are out of hall. Aquos, yw, pengyous, shooting peeps. sucks being busy. thinking of the stuff i still have yet to do, SIAN!!!

Anyway, today (sat) instead of mugging at home, i'm dragged out by my mum to go parkway parade to do new year shopping. argh... there goes my hopes of catching up my studies. On the other hand, i'm done with CNY clothes, dun need to worry no new clothes to wear liao~ haha.. but i've gotta get shoes~ prob gonna go bugis street one of these days... then at night was kelly's bday party (my cousin). chatted with relatives, etc... oh man.. i feel old.. the kids (my cousins) are all growing up, entering secondary school, JC, etc.... those were the days.... haha...
and here i am blogging at 3.50am when i should be asleep or mugging. :X
RAWR~ i need TIME....

oh... and went for inter-faculty shoot on fri. SUCKED. damn depressing can?! i can't even hit an 8 average... when my peak was 9.5average. :X but the rifle i used was sucky too... aiming EXACTLY in the centre would end up shooting 3 points left from the centre. No matter how i adjust the sightings, to shift it to the right, NOTHING HAPPENS!!! so i ended up having to compensate, i.e. aiming AWAY from the centre, and more to the right. Screwed up. either i compensated to much or too little. it feels weird having to aim NOT at the centre... =.=''

Oh... and i bought 2 keychains from JSS bazaar.... shall up load the pics when i have time. haha..
~MeHhz~

rawr~

sigh.. so sian.. dun feel like mugging.
I'm just doing readings for my gem. =P
k. anyway, was crazy on thurs night, or rather morning.
Indy pple decided to play till breakfast time, so we ended up playing citadels, sabotuer and daidi till 7.30am, before taking breakfast and sleeping. XD FUN! missed such times... But sadly, it was no longer the full indy like last time. instead, newcomers joined in, not that i mind. But the old indy members were gone. Only jy, hweesh, cc, yishiean and i were 'officially' from indy. Cc's roomie, josias (dunno how to spell), derek and looi joined in too.... =) but the other indy were gone~ haiz.... anyway, it was still fun playing with them. though i practically stoned the whole of friday due to lack of sleep.
Din't study at all throughout the weekend, so tmr MUST start! amd i'm gonna miss lecture cos of some COOP event that Dr. Bala Krishnan (however u spell his name) is attending. I'm in RH choir that's performing. So tmr sound check. not gonna go for lecture~ so i MUST study lecture notes liao... *pouts* (omg.. i'm learning 'pouts' from jacq... haha...)
RAWR~! anyway, time to do readings! haha...
though i'm not in the mood for it... :X
oh. had floorball today. Sucked big time. kept losing the ball. =.='' sian. never could achieve the good control i need. rawr~
~MeHhz~

week 1

Whew~ Shifted back to hall on tues...
Lectures start on full scale... SUPER hiong. sigh...
Engine topics are soooo deadly, i can get lost in the very first lecture.
*cries*
really gotta read lecture notes before lectures liao.
plus now with my gem and ss... how the hell do i find time to do the projects.
Shit, i killed myself taking both gem and ss this sem. with readings to do somemore. 6mods! ahhhh.....
But i can't deny, i'm enjoying the mods.. it may seem dry to others, but i'm loving it.
K maybe not so much for Japan and Singapore. But intro to japanese studies is pure YAYNESS. I'm learning what i've always wanted to know, japanese history.. the heian period, and samurai periods, etc.... Always wanted to read up, but there's either manga drama to divert my attention, or i've no time to do so.. Now, i'll have to study it. Whee~ But again, it doesn't mean i can do well for it. it's an arts module... :X
There's like so much to read for 6mods of lectures. i dun have enuf time.. :X plus lappy to tempt me. haha. Oh, and my lovely hallmates. I'm loving my hall room~ New room, with great neighbours. Indy all in one block~ see them so often. woots! helps in reducing stress. =) but hall activites are killer too. with choir twice a week, floorball twice a week, cultural comm meetings coming up i think.... so far past 4days i had only 4-5hrs of sleep... so diff from the hols, where i slept till late~ :X
Busy times.... once lab and tutorials starts, i'm DEAD.
haha..... MUGGGG~
OH! AND I HAVEN'T WATCHED ANY DRAMA AND ANIMES OR MOVIES since school started. Like WOW! sheri's disciplined enuf to not do such time consuming stuff, plus no more than 30mins of manga per day! XD but probably cos of hall events and such. haha.. and now lecture notes are piling up... *pulls hair*
I'm really scared of this sem... 24hrs doesn't seem enuf.
but i'm looking forward to intro to jap studies~ XD
~MeHhz~

social networks...

Reason i never wanted to major in business was cos i hate office politics, etc...
And the need to market ur stuff to friends and peers.
K. maybe i'm being naive, never work in offices so i dunno the whole picture, and i have a biased view.
But it's strange, how friends can make use of relationships to market their work stuff etc.
It's not like i did not consider ur proposal or whatnot...
But the fact is that i don't feel like wanting to get involved in such stuff.
I'm thankful that u thought of me, but i've shown ample seriousness in considering it, and then decided not to be invovled, why? why must u pull in stuff like ''i'll be disappointed if u even reject the offer of viewing it.''?
So, it's now the me who should feel guilty for not viewing? I know, it does no harm to just view it, no harm at all. but this is me, if i dun want something, why put in extra effort to go all the way down to some inconvenient place? Just on friendship? i've enuf of travelling to and fro school and home and piano. Tired enuf with hall activities. I wanna slack when i'm free. If i'm not interested, why go? I mean if it's a meetup with friends kinda thing, ok. But to view something i'm not invovled in? Sorry. U'll be disappointed. I know. but sorry, don't use friendship to market such stuff. i hate it. know the limits.
Some might know who i'm refering to, but i meant no harm. Friends? we still are. meetup? i'm ok. But pls, dun ask me to go all the way to a certain place for something i have no interest in. SORRY. i hope u're not offended. :X
Yes, i hate such stuff cos it's hard to reject someone without offending the person. It's also equally hard to push something on someone without fearing that friend will shun u in the near future. i hate such social networkings. Please don't be offended. >.<
I shall update on school life in the next post.. =) soon...
~MeHhz~

eh... it just somehow ended up a long post. =P

Wha~ i'm surprised... am i gonna get intro to jap studies at 1bid point?! it's closed bidding period now, and open bidding ended at only 75bidders when quota is 150. I'm shocked~ am i so lucky to get both my GEM and SS at 1 point each~? haha.. we shall see tonight when the results are out!
EDIT: OMG! YES! I GOT BOTH AT 1 POINT!!!
Eveline, RuiJean, Brandon and MeiHui are gonna go japan after this sem. I WANNA GO~ this sem is a chance for me to 'work towards my goal'... JAPAN. Hopefully i'll work hard and my parents will let me go~ I dun mind it as my 21st birthday present too. It'll be the PERFECT gift, a chance of freedom with friends in JAPAN. *prays hard*
With 2 Japan related modules, 1 design module and 3 engine mods, i HOPE i can do well. :X No more slacking (too much). haha.. I've stopped manga-ing. At least i'm no longer searching for new mangas, only reading updates like once a week. =) But i guess i'll NEVER stop dramas. But i'll control myself for sure! i need my usual dose of listening to japanese language... XD hehe~ Maybe i should turn to anime instead, so 1 episode is 20mins instead of an hour. haha...
Monday school's reopening... And my dad wants to bring my family to malacca this sat and sun. =.='' My hall room is not packed, not cleaned, and i've to rush cleaning up on friday and shifting in on tues, since my monday is packed with 12-2 lecture, 4-5 piano make-up lesson, and 6.30-8 tuition make-up lesson. Sigh... can't start the semester comfortably. But i'll make it work somehow. No more starting of semesters on the wrong foot! plus i get to enjoy indy company in hall once again, for the very last semester, since i think i wont be living in hall in yr3. So this semester, i'll work hard and enjoy it to the fullest! *fighting*
Anyway, to recap aims for 2010:
1) no more negative thoughts... i hope.
2) MUG HARD!!! (includes pulling cap)
3) no more procrastination
4) less supper! (once a week at most!)
5) complete the 4 songs i've always wanted learn
6) save $. lunch=less than $3!!! i'm broke.
EVERYONE JIA YOU FOR 2010~!!! XD
oh. had a nice dream a few days ago. =)
OH AND! i FINALLY BOUGHT JJ's NEW ALBUM~! ENJOYING THE SONGS!! haha... I guess JJ's the only one whom i've been buying almost all his music albums. =) at least he composes his own songs! my other love, SID has too ex albums to splurge on. Haha... SID has never failed to draw me back to loving jrock whenever i get sick of jrock in general. haha... Mao's voice is juzzzzz toooooo nice and their style is tooo versatile! loving them once again~ XD
~MeHhz~
I wonder if u ever knew how demoralizing ur words can be.
I mean, i grew up listening to it.
It's time i got used to it.
But then again, i used to be full of confidence and can laugh off ur mean words.
Now, at this stage, with my studies doing badly, etc...
Ur words really affect me. But i guess it's REALLY time i got used to it.
somehow, that seems impossible though.
Every word of ur so called 'lecture' or 'teachings' are actually ur way of putting us down. Its depressing. I sometimes feel guilty for hoping u're not around. But then again, i can't help it. I dunno. well, i can just say thank you i guess. For trying to 'motivate' us, though its the wrong way round. :X

SCHOOL REOPENS....

Bidding of modules....
prob 6 mods again.
hope to do better with 2 interesting mods jap-related mods.
But i guess they are rather dry mods...
we shall see...

Anyway, went cash studio with eveline today. FINALLY. sang till i shuang for 5.5 hrs... HAHA!
I wanna go again~
Japanese songs are sooo nice to sing!!!
but i guess the next time will be after this coming semester.
Must be guai and mug.

Oh! and yay~ RH is free for me to shift in already~ Whee~ XD
wont have to travel to and fro during jan liao!!!!
but i gotta be disciplined and mug!

PMS over~ no emoing liao! haha...
New year, new start, no point wallowing in self despair!

oh i completed buzzer beater. Nice show! hold on to ur dreams!
=)
~MeHhz~

Happy New Year! 2010~

Looking back at my resolution for 2009...
"2009 will be the year to make things right.
1) Buck up on ur freakin studies. No more manga's in the afternoon and skipping of maths lectures.
-Well... it was like manga 'bankai' mode in 2009. I failed at this terribly. But at least i no longer skipped maths mod.
2) Organise ur freakin time properly and start exercising! Stop being a lazy bum.
-BAD time management, nvr exercised. But joined floorball and aikido. =)
3) Prac piano often, not 3hrs b4 ur lesson
-eh... improved to prac 7hrs b4 lesson. :X
4) DO ur tutorials before lessons.
-only for the first 1month... oopx.
5) Start revising jap
-HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING
6) Go church regularly
-i'm guilty.
7) Stop feeling negative about restrictions
-i'm passed feeling negative. it's worse than negative.
8) Be a better person
-trying."

So... 2009 was still quite full of failures. Lessons learnt, i'm more useless than i thought. I've been feeling very pissed and emo. been snapping at my loved ones for no reason, or rather, i'm getting irritated very easily. To the point that i wonder if i'm being sensitive, or my mum actually increased her nagginess.... :X i'm a bad daughter.
I'm feeling made-use-of these days. pissed with everything, but mostly with myself.
Just can't get the bad thoughts out.
I guess maybe it's a wrong day to blog.
Hopefully, it's cos i'm PMS-ing and not that sheri has turned into an emo kia.
anyway, 2010....
I'm gonna turn 21 this year.
I still have no idea what to do with life.
what do i wanna be next time.
Nothing interests me. is it cos i'm pure lazy? or just cos i haven't found a something i really like as a job?
I'm a coward, i daren't seek out stuff i really like cos its unconventional, or cos my parents will kill me if i dun go uni, etc...
I've been walking the path my parents want me to till now. And i have no idea what to do after i grad from uni, assuming i can do well enuf to pass out.
Sometimes i even wonder if my existence has any meaning to anyone... Probably my parents... cos i realised sometimes whether i'm around or not, it doesn't really make a difference to my friends. I guess its cos they have been the one bringing joy to me and not the other way round. Parents-wise.... i guess i'm impt to them. But i wonder is it just as a tool to show off... my girl is smart, learn this, learn that, go this school, go uni, get this get that, etc... That's what i experienced when i was younger. Now, as a failure student in uni, they can't brag about me anymore. HAHA. But i'm still guai.... (unlike my bro who argues back) so.. i'm the 'convenient-to-assign-tasks-person, where they'll go, hey.. help me do this ah.. and do that ah... then do this ah... while my bro get to go out, have fun, play comp, etc...
Yeah... seems like a bitter post isn't it?
I dunno... sheri wasn't like that. at all.
I wonder why as i grow up, i'm feeling more useless and stuff like that.

Ah.... hopefully 2010 will be better...
Hopefully i can be a more understanding daughter/sister/friend.
Hopefully i don't hurt myself anymore.
Hopefully i can find a path in life.
Hopefully....

Just a confession... i guess some friends might wonder.. why is it they have been telling me their secrets, crushes, etc.. but i've not said anything about mine to them. no, it's not that i'm hiding anything or that i dun trust my close buddies. Its just, i know my limits and i know my size and looks. I've never allowed myself to crush seriously on anyone. cos i know i'll be the one who's hurt in the end. I do look at shuai ge's etc... but nothing more that fantasizing or daydreaming. there's always a barrier in me to prevent crushes. so u all know now, why i've no 'heavy' crushes...

Kk.... enough eno-ing. Maybe i should do this newyearreflection post another day. Lolx.
Kk... things to aim for this year.
- pull up my frigging cap.
-find an aim
-revise jap
-study
-stop procrastinating.
5 simple things to do. Can i?

On a lighter note, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! =)
~MeHhz~

first post HAHA!! *sacarsm*

IRRITATING.... Freaking irritating....
Spoil my first few hours of new year.
can't u just shut up?
just do ur own thing....
i going nuts sitting down hear listening to u.
SHUT UP!
irritating. seriously.
mind ur own f-king business.
ARGH!!!!!! *pulls hair and scream*
stop spoiling my day.

last post of 2009 (long...)

I seriously have no mood to blog. either i'm seriously being emo, or i'm PMS-ing. RAWR.
anyway, i GOTTA blog this post b4 this year ends... zzz.. so i shall just blog. =.=''
*refers to my list on previous post*

First up, ZENI GEBA. It refers to someone's who's crazy for money in japanese. Its a drama i watched quite awhile ago, always wanted to blog about it, but procrastinated till now. I could have just not blogged about it if not for the deep impression it left on me. Seldom do i see dramas that are SOOOOO dark. To really go crazy for $, to kill someone who loved u whole-heartedly, to kill a friend who could very well be your closest friend, to kill a family u almost could learn to love and enjoy, all because of money. A twisted show, VERY. So much so that u can't sleep well at night, u hyperventilate till you get to hug money. u have nightmares every single day, but u still continue plotting. Till u can no longer bare it, u seek death. Before your death, u dream, about how life would be if u weren't crazy for money, if u did not kill your would-be-friends, or family, or fiance. A sadly twisted show, with a depressing ending, a regrettable ending, unfortunately. But somehow, it just draws u to continue watching. Anyway, the actor was kenichi matsuyama (actor of L in deathnote) so it was quite refreshing to see this super twisted side of him after watching him act retardedly in other shows.

Secondly, pple to date. Yes, i've dated almost all my uber close friends. Now i'm left with EVELINE!!! Cash studio pls!!! and pengyous, with yw, xf ziyee, etc for singing k. I can't believed i haven't sang K the whole of this hols!

Thirdly, awl birthday celebrations. omg.. hweesh's post on this was so detailed, i'm tempted to just copy and paste it here. haha.. anyway, went marche for lunch with awl, jy, and hweesh. It just seems like a total singaporean meeting. Then bought a 'self-decorate' cake for him and we all had fun doing it~ XD then went to princept street, intending to go minds cafe for board games. But we stumbled upon another cafe that provides wii~ so we went there to play. 11.50 for 4 hours. not bad, had fun playing mario kart, house of the dead, VS fighting, and super mario! 4 players super mario land is uber fun. haha.. you'll end up dying more often and bouncing on each other's head. all in all, i hope the celebration was fun enuf for him, since its so small scale compared to others. :x

Next, its christmas. Without the christmas mood. Family gathering as usual, but spirits were quite low as the number of old folks decrease every year, and my grandma being hospitalized that very afternoon. Still, i had prezzies though. =) Then, its... permanent fish!! (OMG i missed the concert!) Zzzz.... just realised this Japanese acappella group came to esplanade to perform. AND I MISSED IT!!!! i could kill myself. I'm always complaining to japanese groups ever come here. And i actually missed an ACAPPELLA performance by them?!?! k. their not very popular, andi only heard of them recently, not good looking either. But who cares when they can sing?! good harmonisation too! >.<

Next, went out with yw to watch bodyguards and assasins at jurong point. Finally got to walk around jurong point. I just realised its so nice to shop there lah! i should go there more often. Din walk much in the end also cos lack of time, plus i sprained my ankle for the first time in my life when i was having flooball earlier. So its 'ouch' as i jalan jalan.

Last point~ SHOWS LEFT TO WATCH! -tokyo dogs (last 2 epi) -real clothes (waiting for subs) -othorus no inu (school reope, copy from eveline then watch) -code blue (see how.... seems nice) -buzzer beat (DVDs waiting for me to watch) -my girl (hopefully start it soon) Just finished You're Beautiful, a korean drama of 16 episodes. LOVED IT. Storylines are based on all the stuff i like in anime, drama or manga. Firstly, MUSIC. it's a boy band group. Secondly, gender bender. It the girl act as guy kinda show, then later everyone discover. I've read TONS of such manga, watched afew of these dramas, but i always like seeing it. =) Thirdly, there's shuai ge. the actor acted in beethoven virus and i love his musical talents! (though it might just be in the show) Fourthly, its soooo manga-like, and funny. =)

THERE! finished what i need to. next post would be tmr. On 2009 reflections and 2010 resolutions. Ironically, while everyone's out there celebrating on New Year's Eve, i'm home alone while my parents go visit my grandma in CGH, and my bro out with his friends. It's weird. From young, the rule was no outings on Eve's of CNY, New year, and christmas, cos its FAMILY time. (probably only for me, my bro has all the freedom) But here i am ALONE at home. Stupid. i could have gone out with indy for new year celebration instead. =.='' Argh! so many things in my mind, but i lack the will to sort them out and put them down in words. I shall just type them in the next post as reflections.

~MeHhz~

list

been too lazy to update.
Just a list of stuff i'm to blog,
incase i forget....
-zeni geba
-pple left to date
-awl birthday celebration
-christmas gifts.
-permanent fish (OMG i missed the concert!)
-outing with yw
-shows left to watch
-1st jan, reflection of 2009.
should have others, but i can't rmb offhand...
~MeHhz~

emo~

Haha... today's results day = emo day.
Well, i did better than i thought i would.
No failure, No D.
But still, no A for science of music.
Cap still as cui.
And i really mean it's cui. For those who know my previous score, its not any better.
Sigh.... only 0.18 increase.
So.... today was spent shopping around with my mum at parkway parade... great way to emo, esp when she went for a haircut and i was walking around aimlessly... clothes and shoes are so nice.. but they still make me emo... cos.... :X
Sigh...
Missed the emo session at night (since they're not online, i guess they did go).
Well, i can't cos my mum forbid.... another point to emo about. I really miss going K with them, and i wont be able to go JB for shopping or k or movie with them...
Sigh....
Anyway, it's quite sad that while i'm glad i didn't fail or get Ds, others are sad they got B-, etc... haha... and its not just 1 friend.. Its many... i guess they are all in a diff league from me. but i'm learning to accept it. as usual, i daren't ask my friends their score... its them who ask me. But i guess i'll know sooner or later.. haha...
Like so and so got dean's list, etc.... XD
I wanna go emo session~ >.<
~MeHhz~
But nah... dun worry.. i'm fine. =)

great.

just great. spoil my day. spoil my mood.
whatever. u and ur sensitivity.
just great.
thank you.
~MeHhz~

Funfunfun~

First up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWEE SHAN!!
although i know its belated... :P

Anyway, yesterday, 17dec, was spent celebrating hweesh and derek's bday. Had floorball first at 4-6pm. wah.. total killer. Ran round nus campus, sprinting up slopes repeatedly, continously jogging..... zzz... it's good exercise, but it's kinda depressing to find myself struggling while others can keep up quite well. Well, i'm fat, what can i expect. :X
After floorball, took a quick shower, and we made our way to Vivo~ (hweesh, derek, awl, jy, theirry, vanini, liheng and me) ate at kim gary's.... wanted to cut a cake there, but awl and i failed to find an affordable, yet not-too-big cake at 9pm in vivo. haha... so ended up asking kaixiang to buy back to hall for us, while we made our way to Tiong Bahru Plaza to catch AVATAR(3D) @ 10.30. OMG! first time i watched night movie~! Haha.. we still planned to run out of the cinema to catch the last bus back to hall. Unfortunately, blur us all forgotten to check the movie duration, which was 3HRS! haha.. so gotta cab back. Well, anyway, it was worth cabbing back cos the 3hrs movie was TOTALLY worth it. I highly recommend!!! =)
So~ once back in hall, we took a quick shower then gathered at awl's room for room session~ where we cut the cake also. haha.. by then, it was like 3am. Played a round of citadels and sabotuer till 4.30am, then derek went to sleep. Continued with ass-hole dai di til 5.30 then hweesh went to sleep. jy, awl and i carried on till about 6.30, then we gave up. haha.. awl was falling alseep also. Ended up 3 squeezed on a single bed. Lolx. Well, i was between hweesh and awl, and was in some fairly dangerous position considering the fact that i almost got elbowed in my face by awl. Haha.. anyway, i wasn't exactly asleep, so could siam in time.
In the end, i sat up cos there was no space. Lolx. and passed time chatting with jia yong, playing ji ko pah. Haha. 9am. woke derek and hweesh who had to prepare of activities. kinda amusing to wake them up... XD
So finally, went back to my room to sleep at 9am-12noon. Then went out for lunch with my mum & bro @ Tamp1 thai express... walked around drowsily as my mum did her shopping. zzzz... Home finally.
My muscles ache from floorball run... i'm tired from insufficient sleep...
But probably will end up watching drama's... XD
Haven't had such a fulfilling day in a long long long long time. =)
Moar gatherings and indy room sessions pls! =D
~MeHhz~

no mood.

Dunno why.... but haven't been in the mood to blog recently. Sooo much things on during hols. I'm not even watching any dramas now. Zzz..
I yearn for 3 consecutive days of free time to really nua at home. But =( seems like its quite impossible. Anyway, choir caroling has been fun, and floorball gives me exercise and reminds me how lan4 i am, and that i better not pon pracitces. :X
Finally finished a manga called W-Juliet. Not bad, sweet ending. a couple chasing after their dreams, finally attaining it and settling down. And i hereby proclaim. I SHALL STOP READING NEW MANGAS. haha... i think i've read enuf shoujo manga to guess the endings of most romance plots. even the slightest hint will be caught by me. HAHA~ i shall just read the new updates on uncompleted mangas. i shan't search on or start on any new stories... =) i'm just reading it for the sake of escaping reality... daydreaming bout life, etc... i should spend my time more wisely i guess.
sigh.... really wanted to blog about some other stuff, but not in the mood to phrase it nicely. So... i shall just stop here.
~MeHhz~

whahaha~

AQUOS stayed over at my place on monday~
Celebrated Jacq's bday (like finally). XD
But was kinda feeling bad cos we weren't able to find a second present to go with the beanie we bought for her.. :X so we ended up treating her dinner and cake for supper. :X
Kk.. i'll confess up. I'm supposed to bring u to shop around b4 the movie, but ended up, i was late... So... :X we went straight for movie. haha. Gomen ne~
Oh and the internet no prob liaao~ haha...
no more bad dreams~

Next, went out with yiwei on tues~ whee~ So long nvr meet liao.
Movie + dinner~ =) next time gotta go shopping with u! and kbox!

Missed Gokusen unfortunately. Damn, my wed was busy and the movie end that day. I'm SO SORRY eveline.. :X
~MeHhz~

Self-inflicted minor 'headaches'....

Sian. floorball and choir carolling is gonna take up ALL my time. T.T
I haven't even met yiwei and eveline after my exams. T.T
I feel so guilty having cancelled meeting them for like 2 times? :X
I'm SO sorry my dears.
I screwed up in time management, and now, i can't meet u.
I mean, i can, but like for 3 hours? then gtg...
But i DON'T WANT that. I mean....
What's the point of meeting that short while, then gotta rush off?
If i'm meet u pple, i'ld rather meet u for a whole day and then have fun.
I'm soooo very sorry... :X been cancelling dates like an idiot,
time and again. :X
I promise i'll MEET u all for a whole day the next time. :X
~MeHhz~

EXILE

Oooh.. i've fallen for their voice~ haha...
new group to search on, though its not jrock.
i think i've lost touch of jrock songs. gotta search up more. :X
My new blog song is by them, EXILE. futatsu no kuchibiru.
=)
~MeHhz~
Hmm... so i'm rmbed? probably when u're bored. well it's okay. haha.