自责

I wanted to go. I planned to go. I wanted fun. I missed them. I wanted freedom. But alas, i was banned from going. I blamed her. SHE didn't let me have fun. She stopped me. It's all because she didn't allow. I missed out the fun. It's all her fault!
But deep down, i know, i'm in the wrong. Ever since my results came out. i knew i was wrong. My own lack of self discipline. My lazy behaviour. My avoiding of studies. My slack attitude. I deserved this. I have no right to complain.
That is why, i did not OPEN my mouth to beg to go. Though i really really really wanted to go, more than anything, cos i know this meeting was gonna be a totally enjoyable one. Crapping, supper, room sessions, etc... All these, without worrying about studies cos its holidays. One last time b4 school reopens. Still, i deserved this grounding. It's entirely my fault.
So! next sem i will work hard. I DO NOT want any restrictions on the long 3 months break after sem 2. I hope. But for now, i should just face the music. And stone. Maybe pray that tmr night will be equally good? haha.. i dunno.
~MeHhz~