shag....?

Been wanting to blog for quite awhile. Many things have been running through my mind. But i'm seriously shag. (lets see if i'll end up typing everything in this post.)
Today was floorball training. @kallang valhall. kinda weird cos i still didn't know many of them at all. But once again, thank god for RH's friendly pple. Though i'm kinda quiet (as usual-i dunno how to open my mouth), at least they'll still joke around me. =) training... was, well.. fun, but my stupid leg just kept cramping. No idea why.. argh. hopefully the muscle will stop pulling by tmr. Oh. And i found out weibin(floorball guys ic) was actually from TPJC. Lolx. and he's my bro's age? Totally dun look that old. haha.
Anyway, i've been wondering many stuff these few days. Some blog-able, some not. First up, i'm kinda glad i went home on friday night. Kor mentioned that my ma should be happy. I was kinda having the "ya ya... she should be happy lor" attitude, until she mentioned: "i was wondering what kind of CNY this year will be, ur father not in singapore, ur bro gone out with his friends at night, i was so happy when u called to say u're coming back." that was when it striked me. I was such an ass, caught up in my own hall life, TOTALLY neglecting my mum. Ya, i was fighting hard to NOT return home. but i nvr really stopped to think from another point of view. I was indeed being tightly restricted, but i've been too f-kin' busy trying to break out to notice my mum's feelings. Or rather, i noticed, but i somehow didn't notice the severity of the situation. Now, i wonder what i should do. Hall or home in year 2? Should i do what's right? or what i really want to do?
Secondly, relationships are such fragile things. I've friends, many in fact, who got together and broke up (on both bad terms or good terms), friends who got together and are still happily together, friends who are in pursuit. I've seen the many troubles they had, or the bliss they shared. I guess i'm more affected by the troubles than bliss. There are no rights and wrongs in love, but there do exist some jerks out there. But jerks aside, i've seen friends struggle with their hearts, seen sad endings, enuf to realise, i'ld rather study now and not seek such troubles. To my dear friends out there, all the best in ur pursuits, to those already in bliss, treasure each other and be happy k? ^^
Thirdly, although i've known this fact all along, it's sooooo very clear to me now. Everyone has more than a side to his/her personality. One is the happy outgoing side, another is the more emo/ deep side. Somehow, i've gotten to see this double side of MANY friends, not just 1 or 2. It's kinda unerving, but at the same time, i'm glad they are 'open' enuf infront of me. Though i'm bad at words as usual (yah, most of u should have realised, i know how to listen, but dunno how to console de), all i can say is, i'll pray for all of u. ^^
Hmm.... seems like i managed to type majority of what i want, but still not all. I'm really dead tired now. Done more spring cleaning today as well.. Zzzz....
Sometimes i've wondered if i've been irritating some pple with my actions. I really wonder... Was i being too.... :X I dunno.
~Mehhz~