Image taken from deviant art. I've some weird fetish for stars and supernovas these days. The whole process of stars dying and forming again is so cool! haha.. and the night sky is always so beautiful when it's full of stars...Floorball ended at 11.50pm... Went back to my room to do that solidworks tutorial while i cool down b4 i bathe.. @.@ i'm so screwed lah. Tutorials are all coming fast, and i've already lost the momentum to study.
Anyway, i'm really hungry now. And i'm snacking on my bday prezzie given by eveline.. HAHa~ 4 packets of biscuits and 2 tubs of cookies. *Woots~* Perfect way to keep me from going to RH for supper when i'm hungry. Thanks~!
Been randomly surfing through some blogs of friends whom i seldom contact. It makes me feel so useless. There they are chasing their dreams, achieving what they want to, and here i am, flunking uni. Furthermore, although i tried hard to stop myself from delving too deep into japanese culture, i can't help but feel a pang of jealousy/sadness, that i've been missing out sooo many important events. Events that i've really wanted to go to - Natsu matsuri. I'm trying hard not to go out too much, since i'm staying in hostel, anymore outings, my parents will nag non-stop and kill me one fine day. But, i REALLY miss them. So much.
That aside, i've got to say, Singaporeans are not all kiasu, unhelpful pple. Many times i've witness helpful guys and girls alike, being gentlemanly, being considerate, etc... That's why i've never thought that there's no hope for singaporean's kiasu attitude. =) Somehow its only the adults that behave so kiasu-ly. Haha.
Also, there's this super cool friend of mine that i really look up to. She's pretty and cute although she never acts cute, she's smart and has superb dance moves. And the thing that i really look up to, is her confidence and independance. And no, i'm not les. I'm just so marvelled by the fact that she carries herself with the air of confidence i will never have.
Last thing to 'random' about. Sometime i've been thinking, am i such an easy person to make use of? Certain friends totally take me for granted and ask for unreasonable favours. Some, i know have no choice but to ask me for help. That, i understand and will certainly help even if the request is kinda 'too much'. But even my family takes me for granted. Everytime, sheri, go do this, girl, go do that, eh, u free help me do this and that. I'm not the only child u have can? Just because i'm brought up to 'respect my parents and help out in the house', and i never complain when u ask for help, doesn't mean i don't mind doing EVERYTHING. I'm not the only child. Just because he'll complain or make noise and i don't, doesn't mean u can just make use of me. Change fish water, i got to do that, help u do this, help u do that, while ur other child sits in front of his computer to surf his favourite sites. whatever....
Anyway, i should be sleeping now instead of blogging. I've added another new section stating my hopes and dreams... Things i've always wished for, but might never come true anyway. Just a reminder to myself...
~MeHhz~
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