if.

if this is what growing up means, i hope i've never grown up.
to accept the possibility of the once-thought impossible, to be surrounded by negative thoughts and yet go on in life as if all is fine and well, to have to face heavier responsibilities that you can never shirk or actually turn to someone else about.
but alas, this is life.
Turning to fanfictions gives me temporary relief, to innocently live in fantasy storylines where happily ever after is always possible.
Can i not grow up and open my eyes to the realities of this world?
if only.....
~MeHhz~