come on

being envious is not going to help me.

pushing myself to limits is not going to do any good other than being tired out.

jealousy is unbecoming.

selfdoubt is only useful to a certain extent before it demoralizes me.

segment my thoughts. space out my work. concentrate in intervals.

only then can i complete what i'm to do. what i want to do.
come on sheri. stop wasting time being stupid.

~MeHhz~

realisation:
5yrs old - disney princesses, stories, WOW.
teenage yrs - Disney? hello... i've grown up. grown out of it.
18++ - Disney? OMG. AWESOME SONGS. NOSTALGIC. Simply amazing. XD

recess week

Hmm.... truly a recess week for me. Total slack. Never studied except for that little bit when i went to school on saturday to mug. and now, recess week is over. Haven't mugged for accounting midterms, for LAJ midterms, catch up on industrial automation, etc.... PLUS, i overspent by ALOT during these hols, and i forgotten that i needed a lump sum to cover my mum's and pris's bday presents. Argh. Totally broke, and i'm craving for subway. Haha.. i think i haven't eaten subway for 3 months or more.
Anyway.... time to save $$. No more meals more that cost more than $3! except maybe subway. And no more buying snacks. maybe fruit juice is okay. And gotta start mugging. Omg. sooooo dead. Sigh.
Things to complete this week:
-FYP (create code to normalize data) by wed
-Acc tutorial by tues
-3261 notes b4 thurs
-Mug all for Accounting by fri.
SHIT SAT IS ACC MIDTERMS?!?! *goes ivle to check* *back* yup.
FINISH MUGGING ACC BY FRI.
-start on 3242 chapter 3 on weekends. (sigh)
~MeHhz~

grow up.

yup, it's my turn to tell myself: GROW UP SHERI.
What's the use of throwing urself infront just to let that person trample on you? stop trying to expect to be treated your age when you know that that person will never respect you, will never understand you, will never even think twice about what he says to you no matter how hurtful it is. You're just an irritant in his eye. Grow up, depend on yourself, stop being such a wuss. Why bother to try time and again to improve the relation when that person obviously doesn't give a damn? It's not like that person will ever take a second to listen to you.
K maybe i'm being oversensitive, but i'm kinda sick of it. why is it always me giving way. f.
~MeHhz~
ps: iceskating with engine friends on tues. WHEE~ chilli crab with indy on fri. yum~

be thankful

yup, you better be bloody thankful that i was in the mrt and can't be outwardly pissed off at you. taking things for granted was YOUR problem, and you had the fucking nerves to come lecture me through the phone. all i could do was listen to you scold and try placating you cos the other party who's gonna receive your sharp words is already hurt enough without you shooting. but still, that didn't stop you right? no respect, no sense of duty, just blames and fault finding as if you're so bloody perfect. grow up. learn to be more sensitive to those around you. stop being so freaking self-obsessed. the world doesn't revolve around you.
~MeHhz~

dramatic?

The blogs of 2 friends touched on the fact that reality sets in as we grow up. The innocent world we once lived in as kids is not longer there. The wonderful adult world in which we all wanted to step into, is not as simple or wonderful as we thought as kids. Being an adult opens ur eyes to the different facets of life. What we once thought could only happen in dramas and movies, being overly dramatic and unreal, is actually as real as it can get happening all around you. Relationship problems, the passing away of family, friends, accidents where kids pass away at a young age, where couples divorce, where kids have terminal illness, where guys have extra-marital affairs, where girls make use and toy with guys, where guys cheat in girls or use them for sex, or kids struggling on in life when a parent passes away, unmarried mothers having kids with different guys, etc...
At my age of 22, i do personally know these pple. Drama's are no longer only seen on TV. They are real adaptations of life. Only now, am i fully aware. But one thing i totally cannot accept, are pple who cheat on their wives, or treat their wives like dirt. One party has a young sexy wife with a 5 year old son. Is that not enough? He goes and have an affair with someone who's old than his wife, is a single mum who has a daughter who's about twice his son's age. I totally lost my respect for him. Another case, taking wives for granted, scolding them like they are maids, losing their temper and never admitting they are in the wrong. Does being a husband give you such authority over a wife? someone who bore your children, took care of them, and you as well?
When i was young i used to believe in true love. But now, i've yet to see an old couple who's truly loving even in their old age. I guess there are old loving couples out there, but rare. very rare. Yes, when you are young, you're lovey dovey, etc... but can you actually have enough respect for your other half as you grow old? I hope though, that this generation will be different. We view women and men as equal entities with equal rights. Hopefully guys will treat them with equal respect in future....
Kk.. i might not be making sense here, kinda bad at bringing aross my point in words. But oh well.. just my two cents worth.
~MeHhz~

Rahhhh....

i'm running out of titles for posts. haha.
Oh well.. wanted to watch crazy stupid love tmr (mon). Thought to watch with yw, but she's watching with her colleagues. Thought to watch with jacq, but our timetables TOTALLY clash. i'm free on evenings, she has night classes. She has free days, i have totally full days. =.='' the only time we can make it is 950pm, which my mum strongly forbidded me from going. Zzz....
I wanna watch it by mon so that i can concentrate on fyp and hw on the rest of the week. Thought i had to end up watching alone tmr... since it's so last minute that i probably can't find anyone. But YAY!!! brandon and jean are free! and they don't mind watching with me. =) i shall be lightbulb again... hahaha...
Omg... the guppies gave birth again. =.='' now there are like 40+ babies in total? including those given birth last month. ZZzz... more work when i change fish water since my dad is leaving and the responsibility falls on me. argh.... the babies are so damn tiny and cute. what if i suck them out into the drain accidentally when i change fish water... T.T
Anyway... time to sleep. Procrastinated for 2 hours even though i have to wake up at 8am tmr. Zzzz... gd night world!
~MeHhz~

Long Post with random thoughts.

It's been really really long since i last blogged. And i'm quite surprised that there's actually pple who check my miserable blog daily. haha... Talking about blogs, there are 3 blogs in particular that i really like reading when they are updated. Reading these 3 blogs make me reflect on my life thus far. On bad days, the posts make me feel like shit, like i'm so useless compared to these pple. But on good days, they serve a a source of inspiration, a motivating force that spurs me on to be more like them, as capable, as successful. which few blogs? nope, not some business man's blog or whatsoever... they are friends blogs, mainly Anna, John and hweesh.

John and Hweesh's blog is mostly just general descriptions of their life, thoughts and experiences. But everytime i'm reading it, it reminds me that: all my friends around me are super capable. Musically talented, academically pro, and they all possess the drive to do better, unlike me. Sometimes i really makes me think of how kiddy i am, with lousy grades in uni, no future etc.... But then again, i'm reminded of the amount of effort they put in, compared to me. And also how restricted i am (parents) compared to them. Up till now, i still have no idea what i want in life, what i can do after i graduate, etc.... Whereas quite a few of my friends already have a path in mind, a route they'll embark once they step into working life.

Anna's blog generally reminds me of God's presence in our lives, and how sometimes i forget to turn to him to give thanks and appreciate what i have in life. I may complain about how sucky life can be, how problematic my parents can be, how studies totally suck, how assignments are piling up. But at the end of the day, i should remember, there are sooo many out there worse off. I AM a lucky girl with parents who love me, albeit too protective. I'm living in comfort. And although sometimes i know non-christians think: is god actually real? or that god doesn't exist. But i know that without the lord in my life, it'll totally suck. I've been blessed all my life, since young. No struggles with studies, taking up courses, friendships non-problematic, etc... Maybe i do quarrel with friends and stuff, but at the end of the day it all ends well and i know god is watching over me. My results should have suffered when i was lazy in secondary school, but i pulled through in prayer. JC was killer cos my energy was all spent on shooting. I was given the chance to do my school proud in shooting nationals. A levels were a last minute rush where i chionged, and i was blessed with rather good results. Uni life, there has been modules that i should have failed. But still i scrapped a D or C. It's times when i read anna's blog, that i'm reminded of how blessed i am, that i shouldn't complain so much, and that i should learn to look on the brighter side of life, give thanks to what i have rather than pick on all the bad stuff.

A couple of friends are having relationship/friendship problems these days. It's kind of sad, to see relationships strained due to corcumstances. Love can't be forced, or so they say. But then those who love but are not loved suffer. so much. It's not their fault, neither is it the other party's fault. But still the ache is there. Friendships become strained. I can see friends really feeling the ache. Not just 1 or 2, but a few friends from the different groups of friends i have. RH friends/JC/SEC school. Compared to all, AQUOS friends are the most blessed. With stable relationships for a few years already. Me? i guess i'm lucky in the sense that i haven't had such strong feelings for anyone. I guess it helps that my parents are sooo strict, i don't even dare to have such relationships. On the other hand, it's not like i pretty or whatsoever. So i have no one after me anyway. haha. I am fat. That's a fact. And i'm not going to burden any poor guy with unwanted affections. I guess i know myself well enough that i don't wanna bring such 'ache' to myself, so i've more or less made sure i don't totally fall for any guy. Truthfully, i've faced the fact that i'm short, fat, guyish, etc.... Although it's always said that looks doesn't matter, but then it's common knowledge i guess that size does matter still. I'm not really affected by people saying i'm fat or short, cos these are facts and growing up with a dad like mine, i'm used to facing such stuff. I mean, ever been told by anyone you look like a barrel? or that you look like a pig? or that your face is as big and round as a pancake/bao/watermelon? Haha.... no right? i've been told straight to the face such stuff by my dad, so much so that i don't exactly get pissed or angry by pple calling me names, as long as they are facts. It's not that i'm not totally affected, but if it's not meant to hurt me but meant as a joke, i'm fine with it. =) i'm well trained by my dad after all. ha!

Argh... FYP is a killer. haha... I totally died at trying to figure out SVM(support vector machines). @.@ shall stop blogging here. too tired to reread and check for spelling/grammatical errors. Forgive me if my sentences don't make sense. XD Off to sleep~

~MeHhz~

ahah.

Wasn't allowed out on tues though it's a public hol, cos my dad's coming back from overseas, i gotta stay home. BUT, he came back on monday night, so i'm free tmr. BUT i'm still not supposed to go out. oh well... shall stay home to slack/catch up on my studies.
I realised i do miss up on catching up with lots of my friends. Haven't been talking to liling, hweesh, eveline, yw recently. Been busy, but that's not exactly an excuse. I should try harder to set up meetings.
Gotta catch up on my studies too. Kinda starting to procrastinate these days. boo~
Rmb my data analysis for FYP? haha.. the supervisor said it was well done! XD surprise surprise. First time i've been praised in uni. But i think it's cos they just didn't expect so many graphs or piecharts to be used. but then.... i've more work to do now. Gotta start learning matlab and using it to start some sorting algorithm. @.@ jia you!!!
Oh! my bro gave me my bday present today~ XD grey-scale bape small plushie keychain plus angbao~ so generous this year~ haha... thanks bro! =)
~MeHhz~

22 and still.

i know you care, i'm sorry for being rude. But what's with forcing me to eat breakfast when i'm already 22years old. HELLO. i'm NOT skipping breakfast. I'm just taking a cup of milo b4 i travel to school for LUNCH. and yet, you must try to force me into eating something. FOR WHAT. i'm gonna eat in school anyway. Can't you just leave me alone? And you get all upset and offended after i end up being rude when you force me repeatedly. I mean, you can't exactly blame me right? there's a limit to my temper, i'm only human. Or maybe you can blame me after all, for being an insensitive and rude daughter.
Still, it's only breakfast. why must you make things so difficult.

Also, i was out, with aquos celebrating my bday with me. Do you really expect me to look at my watch, see it's late, tell my friends sorry, i got to leave now, right in the middle when we're playing lan? My friends made time to meet up with me, and i'm to up and go once it's late? yes, i was home late after curfew. 11+ when i'm supposed to reach home b4 11. but hey, i'm 22!! i DIDN'T go out to go clubbing or drink in a pub or flirt with some guy whatsoever. I was with my SECONDARY SCHOOL mates whom you KNOW personally. Granted, i'm late. But i msged to tell you. Is 22 not old enough to be given a little lee-way for being late? Hell, my friends don't even have curfew.

All these restrictions, and yet, i'm still the one where chores are dumped on, not my bro. sheri go change the fish water, go help me wash my shoes, go clean up the stains on the floor when you're free. I don't mind doing. Seriously. But when i'm being controlled to this extent, it's easy to get the feeling of being made used of. My bro gets to go out as and when he likes. He doesn't have curfew. He can be home at 3+4am for all he cares. Me? hope b4 a 9pm, esp just to packet dinner home. 10pm, if it's some 'special occasion'. Chores thrown to me just because i should be more free, or just because i do what i'm told to while my bro doesn't. I'm the easier one to nag at afterall.

Perhaps i should complain so much. Perhaps i should accept that this is part of being a family. I know, i'm lucky to even have parents when others don't. But sometimes i just need to rant abit.

On a lighter note, THANK YOU JACQ PRIS AND HOI for the awesome quality earpiece and hugely decorated note. =) and pancakes! and L4D2! XD
~MeHhz~

complain queen.

Ahhhhhh!!!! Allow me to panic here and complain~ spamming my blog post!!! I'm gonna die die die for fyp!!! Got thrown tons of data on an excel sheet, with tons of numbers and tons of technical terms. My job: data analysis. WHAT SHIT? nvm... out of the 2 sets of HUGE amounts of data, i finally have a rough idea what one of them is about... and my bloody excel is dying on me. Everytime i try to click 'insert graph', it freakin hangs on me!!!! I can't do graph on excel without hanging my laptop and restarting excel. How am i gonna analyse the data!?!??! *panics*
The analysis is due on wed. Specific time not given. But i'm trying to finish it all by tues night or wed early morning, so my wed can be used to do other things, and also hopefully i can give a better impression to my supervisor if i hand in work early. BUT! my laptop's excel is killing me!!!!
And i've yet to puzzle out the other set of data... Tian ah~ why my fyp like that one?!?! all the technical terms on diff part of the eye, the weird values/measurements of parts of the eye... How the hell am i supposed to analyse those data? i don't even know what's the standard measurement!!!
Aiyo!!!!! die lah die lah die lah~ and tmr i still need to waste 3 hours of travelling time for 50mins tutorial... TIAN Ah!!!! =(
~MeHhz~

Whines~

Bleh. just a stupid tutorial tmr from 2-3. Gotta travel 1hr 30mins to school for an hour of lesson and waste another 1hr 30mins to travel home. verdict: whole afternoon gone. RAWR!

Sigh.... i just feel like curling up with a cup of tea and a good book to read. Heck fyp and tutorials! as if i can..... ='(

Bought 3 books today at the central forum. 2 Classics i have yet to read, Jane Eyre and Dracula. Plus a fantasy book by Stephan Lawhead. Cheap, good books. But i don't have the time to read... sigh.

Realised my blogging frequency increased by ALOT once school reopens. ha. an act of procrastination. Lunch with bj and edison today, followed by indy~ monday seems to be a day where most pple are free for lunch! Had discussions on where we should go for grad trip. Probably Taiwan!! so we can stay in liling's house~ and probably another country. Either china, hongkong, korea or japan. Have yet to decide~ haha... I ever wondered, with my parents so strict, and me not working= no money for trips, how the hell do i decide which group of friends to travel with for grad trip. I'll probably be allowed only 1 trip by my parents. After chatting with jacq, i decided to follow whichever group that goes to where i want, and is the most affordable. That way, I won't have to choose between friends. I'm depending on the itinerary. =) travelling with friends, i'll probably enjoy more after i work and earn $$ to freely spend on things. so... grad trip choice will depend on affordability and countries~ =)

Oh and bj couple gave me matcha royce nama chocolates for bday~ XD Thankyou!!
~MeHhz~

THANK YOU!!!

Friday was my birthday! XD Didn't exactly want to remind friends cos i don't really wanna make it a big deal. Friends who rmb, i'll appreciate knowing that they do keep me in mind. =) It's quite comforting that those who rmb are my old buddies, who msg me just past 12, etc.... da jie, jacq, hoi, pris, my aunts, my cousins, hl, etc... (there's still quite a few but i'm too tired to go check my hp and type it in). Even yw called me just b4 12mn! haha. AND indy rmb too. haha... they are awesome.

Anyway, lessons on fri was from 9-11, and then i was supposed to meet hweesh for lunch when she teaches me the route to fusionopolis. Indy then gave me a surprise lunch treat by already being at fusionopolis japanese restaurant when i reached there. =) i'm still so glad i've spent my happiest 2 years of uni living with them. Met my fyp supervisor after that and realised they actually expect quite alot. save me. :X haha... anyway, reached tampines about 4pm, too early for dinner. Stayed at tampines 1 manpuku to mug while waiting for my mum and bro to meet me at 6.30pm. And surprisingly, i met my cousin mugging at manpuku too! Haha... He was mugging for his upcoming A level prelims. Ended up sitting with him to mug, then met my family for dinner, bought a river gauche small choco cake, went home cut cake~ and that's the end of my birthday! =) So much wanted to go for Timbrefest but alas, family comes first. It's been 4 years in NUS, and i've yet to get a chance to go for timbre fest, or RH bash. Or rather, i've yet to step into a club. Haix.... 22 years old and i'm still such a kid. Just hope i can survive in the real world when i've graduated. :X

Taking the chance to go out when my parents are being slight more lax with the issue of 'me not going out too much', since it's my bday period, I joined john, jy and hweesh for a tou of singapore. Or rather, tour part 1 of the 'bring john around s'pore tour'. Acted like a tourist travelling around chinatown area~ Kinda fun cos seriously, cos my parents seldom let me out anyway, chances of me touring singapore for attractions and good food are close to nil. =) enjoyed myself with them but had to leave halfway and miss the other nice tours~ i wanted to go to THE national library too!!!
Anyway, i left to go for natsu matsuri~ XD met up with bj, eveline, james and andrew. As usual jalan jalan-ed around the booths and bought awesome food, etc... the meiji icecream was SUPER NICE!!! haha.. played the water balloon again, and still failed to pick a balloon. Thanks jean for giving me one of yours! =) went for texas chicken dinner with them~ then home.

Wha.... super tired now. Tmr was supposed to meet up with aquos, but prissypoo is sick! so i'll meet them next week instead. Have yet to get a present from my parents and bro cos i still haven't decided what i want. XD Yup, birthdays in my family are like that, we get to decide what we want and the other will buy for you. (obviously it has to be within budget) Am still thinking of what i should get, hee hee... Got a card, and Japan lego landmark from Indy! It looks like the temple in asakusa but i'm not very sure~ gonna fix it up soon and take a pic! =)

K i'm seriously dead tired now.... more or less burnt my feet in the indian temple this afternoon cos we had to walk barefooted to tour the temple and the sun was shining brightly on the temple compounds... t'was fun trying to avoid the HOT pavements though. XD I wanna go for singapore tour part 2! hopefully my workload/parents will allow me to join when it's the next tour~
~MeHhz~

oh damn, i'm reminded of those times.

Lessons ended at 12 today. Kinda proud i paid attention during the whole lecture today! Achievement! haha... i didn't doze off though i had 4 hours of sleep~ probably cos i know that's the only lesson i have today, so i shouldn't waste time in school sleeping. Hur....
Kinda miss eating all together with jean, brandon, eveline and uday since this sem we all have diff timetable. I guess it's part of being year 4, all the random mods we take. Oh well.... And i met ryan in engine canteen today. He made me realise something. I DO MISS RH PPLE. I thought after not contacting indy for such a long time, i might learn to let go of hall life, to be satisfied with living at home, and that to meet up occasionally with them would be enough. But i realise, i do miss all the times. Seeing john and ryan joke about. Having htht with hweesh and liling. Eating dinner with indy. Having enjoyable ccas. Laughing at all the funny antics each indy have. room sessions. supper. rawr. I've been trying not to go back to RH, to avoid reminding myself of fun times. But i guess i'll still end up dropping by when i'm free-er, after FYP to-do stuff is finalised.
AND, i ditched the bj (brandon-jean) couple today to meet jacq for lunch. hee hee... At least i won't be a lightbulb! :P anyway, i FINALLY went to eat @ sun with moon, a japanese restaurant in wheelock place. Awesome food. Ex though. But the Tofu-cheesecake~ omg... so nice. haha..

My FYP supervisor is damn cute can. Haha... i was emailing him asking him when he's free. He replied friday. Then i asked for his address, then he gave me a website for details. Throughout the emails, i've addressed him as Dr. Liu, though he always signs off as Jimmy. Then my last email to him was "Thanks Prof. Liu!" for giving me the website, and he replied: " Hi Sheri, call me Jimmy lah :-). "
HAHAHA.... so cute lah! But so strange, calling a supervisor by his name... Gotta get used to it. Haha. Best thing is, i haven't even met him. And from his pic on the website, he looks sooo much like prof chew. Haha.
~MeHhz~
Added a new song. Heard it from a friends blog. Loved it. =)

Lucifer~

The 8th Saturday since i started the course during the hols.
Finally finished learning the steps to Lucifer! haha....
I'm satisfied. For a noob beginner, at least i know i can learn dance steps fast enough, even though i practically don't practice at all at home. At least i know i won't lumber around like an elephant with my fat ass. haha.... I know my movements are totally not sharp enough, but hey~ i'm a beginner, at least i know i can do it with more practice. =) Am satisfied at last. At least i can happily tell myself i did try to dance despite my size, since i daren't try RH dance at all. Below's the youtube on shinee dancing to lucifer. I learnt and memo-ed all the steps OKAY! I'm not some fat lump bouncing about~ XD
The awesome real dancers:

Hmm... met my FYP prof on friday. Super nice guy. But my fyp is damn cheem. Some image processing thing using mahine language algorithm, means i gotta learn matlab. Plus, i might need to create a new algorithm, or at least add on the the existing one. :X Argh... learning matlab, plus image processing, plus research on existing algorithms in the market, etc... so screwed. haha.. But at least it seems interesting. Lucky hweesh has some notes on image processing so i know where to start. haha... And i gotta travel to biopolis to meet my research supervisor also... gotta email him tmr....
RAWR. Jia you!! final year!!
~MeHhz~

first day of school~

Eh.... straight away i had 6 hours of lecture on the first day of school. Sigh.... But thankfully, due to the new campus, lessons have all been cut short to about 1.5hours each, instead of 2 hours. Tired and sleepy, and yet i'm not sleeping yet. Tmr's a super shuang day, having only 9-11am lessons. Still thought i could go home, but Prof wants to meet me at 4.30pm instead. Zzzzz.... there goes my afternoon, slacking around in school.

National day just passed by. I do miss the singing sessions during secondary/jc time, esp when the singapore songs were still so awesome. Jacq came to stayover on the 8th night and we ended up sleeping at 6am on the 9th. haha... Busy watching drama. 5 episodes from 1am-6am. Then sleep from 6am-1pm. Followed by the remaining 5 episdoes from 1pm-6.30pm. Awesome. haha... Missed having Aquos sleepovers, but i don't miss the cleaning up. :P At least when it's only jacq sleeping over, i don't have to clean up since there's no mess.

Hmm.... It's weird how others can condemn another just because of some misinterpretation. Acts done out of kindness end up painting a bad image of that kind soul. The world of adults is such a complicated arena, and i'm just having my first step forward. I'm not experiencing anything shocking, but that's probably cos i'm still leading a perfectly sheltered life at home and in uni mugging. I guess i can adapt rather easily since transition to living in hall was no bother to me. But in the world of gossips and human relations, seeing how relatives view one another, etc..... I'm kinda dreading graduating and working life. But then again, come on sheri, you always complained about being pampered, wanting to get out of the cage. Time to brave the outside world, or at least start preparing for it. =)
~MeHhz~

Thankful. =)

Some friends say i'm too 'anything', allowing pple to push me around. But i guess, in a way i seriously hate conflicts and stuff, so i'll more or less be fine with anything thrown at me unless it crosses my tolerance threshold, which is actually rather high. I guess i forgive easily, but don't exactly forget. Still, sometimes i'll want to rant, about everything, life, school, friends, family, etc...
And it's times like these that i'm thankful for that small handful of friends i have. I guess i'm rather sensitive, in a sense that b4 i feel comfortable to chat with a friend, i'll think twice on the impacts of my words and stuff. I don't wanna come across as proud, ranting to someone about something when he/she is worst off than me. I also don't wanna come across as some pity-seeking emo kiddo. I just need to know that these friends don't misunderstand my rantings. Anglican High has indeed gifted me with 2 such friends. Yw and Jacq, both whom understands me, listen to me patiently and either sympathizes with me cos they experience it too, or is in the position to give me sound advice to make me feel better. Hweesh is another buddy that i can rant to without fear.
The phrase 'don't wash your dirty linens in public' sometimes make me wonder if i've ranted too much about my family to these friends. Should i really have said such stuff and sorts? But i've come to think that, these are friends whom i trust to not spread what i rant and gossip, having known them for so long. So why fear? I do need an avenue to air my feelings sometimes anyway. And for listening to me, chatting with me, i wanna thank you'll. =)
Similarly, blogging is sort of a stress reliever to me and i hope that those whom i have trusted enough to tell my blog add will not spread my blog address. I know my blog's nothing fantastic, but time to time, i'll still blog somethings which should be private. So thanks in advance. XD

On a lighter note, FINALLY went cash studio to sing japanese songs. Though i didn't exactly sing much, cos i'ld rather allow others a chance to sing instead of hogging (anyway i know most songs and can sing along without mic, and i seldom can decide what song to choose anyway), i still had fun with them all. Jean, brandon, eveline, james, andrew, edison. Dinner was pontian wanton mee, with 2 bowls of soup! haha.. the auntie gave extra bowls of soup(with wanton!) to all of us. LOL! I do miss singing K with all groups of friends.
~MeHhz~

post update! =)

Been ages since i last blogged... approx 2 weeks i think. Been kinda lazy to update, add pics, change blog song, etc... anyway, it's about 2 weeks to school reopening.... bidding starts, ivle active, etc. And i just don't feel like starting to mug. argh. Cannot!! i MUST pull cap!!!!

Anyway, got the FYP of my first choice, "Glaucoma Detection from Retinal Image using Machine Learning Algorithms". Haha... sounds cheem? maybe not to you, but to me, yup. I'm soooo gonna die. Haha.. i sorta chose this cos it's something new for me to learn, and the Prof is Friendly! that's the main thing. At least i know this prof will guide me along properly. =)

Beginning of July, sunday, i FINALLY went to USS, with yw, meng, cake, zi, bing, zy. I've always thought i'll end up going USS with RH indy pple. But after dragging sooo long, i just grabbed the chance to go with any group of friends who's going. And i'm really THANKFUL to join them. The last time i saw most of this grp was sec 4. I met up with cake and meng slightly more often. and very often with yw. But still... a grp of sec school friends in USS is sort of a novelty to me, esp since i used to be so noob and quiet in sec school. Met up with meng cake and yw for dinner today as well. Love catching up with them all.... *smiles*

Yesterday, thurs, i went back to school for FYP intro lecture. I got to eat the mini eclairs during the tea time FINALLY!! Muahahaha~ And after lecture, i went with edison and uday to central library to borrow storybooks while waiting for brandon to swim finish. OMG~ i never knew i was surrounded by FANTASY STORY readers!!!! both edison and uday read those kinda fantasy stories i always get hooked by. XD It's a pleasant surprise finding out that we've read the same books b4, etc... My fantasy storybook buddies have always been hongyi only. haha... *returns to read the book on king arthur*
~MeHhz~

Harry Potter

Before i touch on Harry Potter, a short update on my social life this past week. Tues, met up with hweesh for japanese late lunch/early dinner @ raffles city. After 1 sem of SEP! haha... thanks for the souveniers! =) and i also received Jean's postcard when i opened my letterbox! XD aww... i feel so loved by my friends. =) Though i'm not able to go SEP with my cui cap, but i've dear friends who sent me postcards and bought me gifts. THANK YOU!!!
Friday evening was badminton night with aquos + weixin. Ahhh... missed playing with them so much. If only we could make it a regular occurence despite our busy schedule. =( but then, my right arm, both calfs and butt, ache like shit. haha... and today, sat, went teoheng with hs and jy. A different kind of outing when compared with the usual indy gang. But nonetheless, very comfortable. It seems kinda strange now that i'm starting year 4. Year 1-2 were very concentrated in hall activities, and i found a clique to mix with. But slowly, some problems arise, relationship problems among some, etc... until, the comfortable feeling becomes strained. Slowly, some just withdrew from the clique we're just not as close in 'certain' ways. No more the unrestrained chats and 'suaning' going on. Year 3, i stayed at home, but somehow become closer to a certain few of those RH pple. Unfortuantely, cos of SEP etc... i sort of lost the closeness i had with them. Probably cos they are non-singaporeans and i really i really didn't make additional effort to contact them through facebook or msn. But i really much prefer meet ups to internet-methods of communication. That's why my msn is usually away or offline, and fb not active. Hmmm.. anyway, now that i'm nearing the start of year 4, hall life seems to be so different that i no longer feel the attraction, or the 'loss' of fun. I'm sure to miss choir, ryan, john, kevin, liling!, etc..... But then, hweesh and jy are no longer staying there too. awl is no longer close to us all either. The only singaporean left in Indy is crystal. Oh well... time to move on. Time to get serious for year 4, with my engine buddies to lighten the mood as usual! =)

Hokay! On to Harry Potter! A magical world created by words of an author. Main characters being harry. ron and mione. Bad leader, voldy. Good leader, albus. In between character, snape. I dunno about others, but ever since reading HP fanfictions, my fav characters are either mione or snape. Okay, mione probably cos the fanfics i read tend to paint her as the smart and awesome heroine, helping harry. But in the book, she's not as awesome as the fanfictions. Snape on the other hand, has little info given in the book, mostly because of the twist that he loves? or loved? Lily, and was a spy alllllll along~ SO! Who exactly is the real Severus Snape? The snarky dark potions master? Or was it all an act of a spy? No one knows. But no matter, one cannot deny that he's smart. He's powerful/strong enough to survive as a spy in death eater ranks. He is as slytherin as he can possibly be, but for being so loyal to lily, isn't he slightly hufflepuff-ish? for being so smart, isn't he rather ravenclaw-ish? and for being so courageous as to be a spy, suffer from crucios, and yet continuing this double role, so griffindor-ish? Don't forget, he grew up in slytherin, with his close 'friends' all being death eaters eventually. And yet, he draws upon strength to betray these only friends he ever had, for the good of all, to bring down voldy. I think he's such an awesome character to play around with in fanfictions, with so many different faces to him, that we never know which is his real self. That's why i enjoy reading fanfics. XD haha... Kk... It's abit extreme, but i really love fanfics, cos they can accumulate clues from all 7 books and built up an entire different outlook for a character. Take albus for example. Everything he does is for the greater good. But however griffindor-ish he's supposed to be, you can't deny he's a master manipulator, for leading on harry, handling the order, making use of snape, and hiding sensitive pieces of information from harry, etc... From another angle, albus can be rather power-hungry. Yes, he might keep away from dark arts, but his role as an order leader could also have already provided him the 'power' he needed.
All in all, it's really interesting to see characters play out in different scenarios. Draco Malfoy is another interesting character. You can't deny he's smart and good looking (at least that's what jk rowling seems to portray). He's a snobbish pureblood, coward at times. But what about after the war? when all the beliefs drilled into him comes crashing down? that pure bloods are not superior? Will he change? or will he remain that evil git? no one knows. =)

Lalala~ super long post. but my bottom line is: fanfictions are interesting when they paint out the different hidden personalities of a character! =)
~MeHhz~

i can't think of a title.

Been quite awhile since i last blogged. It's july already, one more month before school reopens. What have i done so far? Nothing. Feeling guilty? Slightly. But i don't really care anymore. It's my last LONG holiday before uni ends and job searching starts. I probably should do up some sort of resume before the holiday ends though.

Been staying at home like some sort of hermit/recluse, doing nothing but reading stories this past week. Thank god for some friends like yw to drag me out of house. =) and Eveline to organise watching Transformers3. =) Sats with Jacq and Pris have been absolute fun. =) All that's left so far is the USS trip with my sec school friends, and the long awaited meeting up with RH pple....
I probably should start looking at sem 7 modules and start selecting my TEs...

My mum's so weird! haha.... she's anyhow pairing up my friends. LOL. Cos everytime eveline asks me out, it's with brandon and james, then she says 'eveline likes brandon' is it?? Then cos everytime yw asks me out with meng and cake, my mum says yw likes either one of the boys. HAHAHA.... it's quite amusing how she thinks about friends who are close to guys. It's like just cos we're all close friends and we go out tgt, there MUST be some kind of attraction. =.='' When i tell her 'NOOO, it's not like that!!' She'll insist that it might be true and that "just because your friends nvr say doesn't mean it's not the case. If not, why always go out tgt." Aiyo..... I also dunno what to say. I mean, we go out cos we're all friends mah... close friends, good friends, etc... *rolls eyes*
It's like people believing that a guy and a girl cannot be simply close friends and nothing more. I don't see why not, seriously. *shrugs*
~MeHhz~

*frowns*

Should've known my parents won't be so easy going about me signing up that course. Well, at least i thought so at first. I signed up like a month ago, paid about a week ago, but only mentioned to my mum 2 days ago. She was all 'okay lor' even though i had to miss my cousin's birthday party. But i can always join in after. Then came to her telling my dad. First thing he mentioned: waste of time. Second thing, should have signed up for computer-related course instead.
Oh well, i knew he wouldn't be happy. I knew it'll be frowned upon. But so far, he hasn't come find me to talk about it. He just mentioned his views against it to my mum. Am steeling myself for the actual time he comes to nag at me. Hopefully he doesn't and lets it go. :X
*crosses fingers*
~MeHhz~
can i ever do anything i like without trepidation?

edit: haha.... of cos he didn't let go. i feel so stupid. time to accept.